[CLOSED FOR SUBMISSIONS] Stronger than You 2017

Part 4: The words as a violence

Written by: Anonymous

It's not to easy for me to talk about, but i need to write it because I can't tolerate it anymore.

I'm the youngest daughter in my family, of course you have heard that the youngest child be the lovely of his parents.

But actually it's didn't happened in my life.

Eight years ago my big brother died, I really really miss him.

I wish that he's with us because a lot of my life has changed after my brother dead.

My parents think that is there's not a life after him, they don't want us; me, my other sisters, my old brother.

It's unbelievable.

I wanted to live like the other children, I wanna run, play with dolls, smile a real smile.

My father hurts me with his heavy words when I was just six years and till now he still hurts me and I don't think he will stop someday.

For me it's the worst violence, the slaps I can forget it their effects disappear with the time.

But the words, I will remember it forever.

It's just like a violence

His words wound me, it's just like a scars in my heart and it's will bring me down but I will fight it.

I hate him so much but after all this, he is my father.

I wish that I can love him someday.

It's not only about my father, it's about my mother and sisters too.

My mother doesn't care about me and my life, I haven't seen her ask me am I okay or not.

My other sisters don't need her, so she think that I don't need her too but actually I really need you mother.

And now when I'm a teenager not a child, I just want a one thing from my family that they understand me.

I can't be act as well and strong forever, maybe the people think I'm happy because I always laugh but in the night my pillow drink my tears.

Not everyday in fact.

I wanna live like other people, with love and happiness.

I know that the happiness isn't in the diamonds, brands, money.

It's in me but I won't feel it if my family didn't give me their love.

With love I will find myself, my real soul and I would love to live without your special violence.❤