Running Low - Shawn Mendes

Chapter 17: One More Hour

~Adeline's POV~

One more hour. One more hour and then Shawn will be gone, and I can try to forget about these stupid feelings. With him being gone, things should be easier. Hopefully.

Right now, I'm staring outside, watching the rain pour down. My mind kept drifting towards Shawn and how stupid I am for having these emotions. What was I ever thinking? That he'd like me back?

"Ads." I heard from behind me. My body went numb at the sound of his voice.

"Shawn shouldn't you have left by now?" I said, looking towards the clock. A small chuckle escaped from his lips as he slid his hand into his pockets. 

"Probably but, not until after we finish our talk." He said and my body went numb again. Come on damn body stop it he's just a boy. Actually he's a sexy man-

"Our talk?" I cut myself off, snapping back into this awkward tension. 

"Yes." He said stepping closer, making my heart go a million miles a minute. "About us."

Shawn was now inches from me, his minty breath hitting my face. He looked down at me with the same eyes from before, and I couldn't tell what he was thinking. Shit. What is he thinking?

"Do you think there's something with us?" He whispered, looking into my soul. Chills traveled their way all throughout my entire body as I tried to think of something- anything to say. I mean, this is Shawn Mendes, one of the hottest, nicest, and most perfect guy in the entire world. He's everything I'm not. That's what hurts the most.

"I don't think so." I said quietly. He looked taken aback by my statement. Tears started welling up in my eyes at the sight of his face. He doesn't deserve to be with someone as messed up as me. He deserves so much better. That's why we need to stay friends, no matter how much it kills me.

"Look, Shawn. Don't get me wrong I love you, like to death. But this feeling is different. Something I've never felt before. I think were just- getting closer as friends." I looked down at his chest so he couldn't see my face. I felt him exhale.

"Okay. Good." He chuckled a bit which brought my attention towards him. He had a small smile on his face but his eyes still looked sad. Good?

"Just wanted to make sure we're on the same page." He said, slowly and quietly. Ouch. Same page? I'm pretty sure someone just stabbed a knife through my heart. So he never actually liked me. Of course he didn't dumbass. He's Shawn Mendes, get over yourself.

"Yeah haha." I said with the fakest smile I've ever shown. He smiled and pulled me in for a hug, the sweet smell of him invading my thoughts. 

"I'm gonna miss you Ads." He said breathlessly. His strong arms wrapped around my torso as mine were around his neck. I could feel his grasp getting tighter and tigher and I didn't care. It felt right. It felt natural. Standing there, myself in his arms, it felt as if the world had stopped, and there was no one else but us. No interruptions, no anything. Just us. It was blissful.

"I have to go." He whispered in my neck, once again, sending chills down my spine. I slowly nodded my head as I began to pull away from him. As I did so, I felt a wave of coldness blow through me. I felt empty. I looked away towards the rain outside again to hide my face, so he wouldn't see that I was about to cry.

"I'll see you at Christmas? " He said, pointing at me and smiling. My face heated up briefly at how cute he was. 

"Damn straight you will. And you best get me a present." Smooth Ads.

"Bossy." He said and rolled his eyes while flipping his 'hair' over his shoulder. That brought a smile to my face, and not a fake one. 

"Go. Before you're late." I laughed, pushing his shoulder gently. Shit he was straight up muscle.

"Alright...Bye Adeline." He said, kissing me on the forehead and then hugging me. Shit, stay calm it was a friendly gesture. That doesn't help with me not liking him. Shawn pulled away with a small smile before turning around and walking out of my room.

The second he left my room, I began crying. Why? I have no fucking idea. Maybe cause I told Shawn we should stay friends and he agreed. Maybe because he's leaving and I wont see him for a Month, or maybe it's because that even when I do see him again, it won't matter because we will never be a thing. How could I have been so stupid?

~Shawn's POV~

Getting closer as friends? Seriously? When she said that I wanted to jump off her balcony right then and there but, I knew I couldn't. How was I so stupid to believe that she actually liked me. How was I so stupid to believe that everything was going to work out? How.

The next time I see Mae, she's gonna hear it.

I tried walking down the other flight of stairs so colton wouldn't see me but, alas, he has fucking eagle hearing.

"Shawn! Wait!" He ran up to me.

"So?" He looked so hopeful....it made me sick.

"I didn't tell her." I mumbled. Colton's eyes went wide before taking a deep breath. 

"WHAT. WHY THE FUCK NOT." He yelled and I shushed him, looking towards the stairs. 

"Because, she said we are just close friends. She said that she doesn't feel anything between us other than friendship." I said sternly. Colton stepped back a few feet.

"I sorry Shawn. I thought-"

"Well, you thought wrong. Both you and Mae did." My hands soon turned to fists as I turned around to leave. I could physically feel my blood start to boil. Why was I so pissed?

"Shawn, you can't just leave." Colton said, gabbing my arm, holding me back. 

"I have to." I said, looking away from him before storming out their front door and out into the rain. I knew it was too good to be true. How could I have been so stupid? 

AHHHHHHHH! I'm in tears Shawn Mendes is so beautiful. 

Mendestrology <3