Who Are You? - A Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction

Chapter 12

MATT'S POV:

"Well..." I pause, seeing Allison somewhat tense. I almost had to stifle a laugh at how she was attempting to look like she wasn't completely freaking out.

I knew that inside though, she probably was freaking out about what I was planning on to saying. She obviously hadn't thought this stunt of hers through very well. But as much as I kept telling myself that I hated her and should make the story extremely embarassing for her, I couldn't bring myself to it. I didn't want to screw up my chance at getting to see the Allison Morgen in the MACK Girls videos, but at the same time, she made me tell the story so that she wouldn't get in trouble if I accidentally said it was fake. I saw Gilinsky, Johnson, and "my girlfriend" all staring at me, expectantly. I looked down at Allison, who was currently sitting in my lap, and saw her eyes begging me to show some mercy. Damn those eyes. Why do they have to be so pretty?

"Well, I guess it just kind of happened. I don't exactly know when it came to me that I liked her, but I know I do. I think it was during truth or dare last night. I just got so jealous when she sat on your lap, JJ, that I realized I didn't hate her. I hated the fact that she wasn't mine. So, yeah, I kind of insulted her because I liked her. When you all left this morning to go and meet Bart, I apologized to her. Then, when we were trapped in the elevator and I thought we were going to die, I told her how I felt and she said she felt the same way. So I asked her to be my girlfriend, she said yes, we kissed, end of story."

I felt Allison relax again and lean into me again. As much as I hated to admit it, and believe me, I did, it felt right to have Allison on my lap. I smiled down at her, kissing her head and pulling her close as Gilinsky took a picture to post to Instagram. The four of us decided to chill out together for the rest of the night and watch movies until we all fell asleep. Gilinsky picked the first movie and ended up picking the Conjuring. As soon as he announced his selection, I felt Allison tense up. I could hear her breathing become faster and she kept looking around, almost like she was trapped. I hadn't ever seen her like this before (considering the fact she was usually too busy lobbing insults in my face to let me get to know her), and I was honestly a little concerned. As Gilinsky popped the movie in I leaned down to whisper to her.

"Hey, you okay?"

Allison looked up at me, shocked. "Um...yeah. I'll be fine. It's just...never mind. It's embarrassing."

I genuinely smiled. This was a new side of Allison Morgen that I was seeing, and I honestly liked this vulnerable side. It was letting me get to know her more. I wasn't going to do anything to screw this moment up.

"Oh come on, tell me. Please?"

She looked up at me with pleading eyes before she sighed. "Fine. But please don't make fun of me."

"Pinky promise."

I stuck out my pinky and she latched hers onto mine, sealing the deal.

"Well...it'a just, I've only seen one scary movie before, The Cabin in the Woods, and apparently that was a mild one. I get scared really easily, which makes all my friends laugh at me and tease me. I ended up spending most of the last horror movie hiding under a body pillow, trying to drown out the scary sound effects and making sure I didn't have to see anything scary on the screen. It didn't work out that well. I didn't sleep for two days. I literally would sit on my bed looking around my room and then try to take naps during the day. But there's no protection now and I'm really scared, Matt."

I looked down and saw genuine fear in her eyes. It was a look I had never seen before in Allison's eyes, and it honestly kind of pained me to see. God, what was wrong with me?! Since the elevator incident, things had been changing, and I didn't like it. But I did feel bad for her. I had seen The Conjuring, and honestly, it freaked me out, and I don't normally get freaked out by horror movies. Knowing that, I knew that if Allison watched it, she would be traumatized and wouldn't sleep for weeks. I looked down at her and noticed that she appeared to be thinking. I could only assume that she was trying to think of a way out of this. When watching her, I realized that that was the first time she had called me Matt instead of Matthew. It sounded nice coming from her. I decided to help her find a way out of the movie, probably against my better judgement.

"Hey guys," I said, and the Jacks looked up. "As great as this movie sounds, I forgot that Allison and I agreed that we were going to try and film a YouTube video together and get it up by later tonight. Isn't that right, princess?"

Allison looked confused at first, but then it clicked. She quickly nodded her head, and turned and gave the Jacks an apologetic look. "Sorry, I totally forgot about that."

"Oh, that's cool," JJ said. "We'll just watch the movie on our laptop, right Jack?"

Gilinsky nodded in agreement. "Yeah, man, just tell us when you guys are done and we'll all watch something together and hangout."

I nodded. As they popped out the DVD, Allison let out a sigh of relief and released me from her death grip. She awkwardly moved off of my lap to the other side of the couch, and I couldn't help but miss her warmth. What is happening to me?!

ALLISON'S POV:
I cannot believe that Matthew now knew about the fact that I scare easily. It's not just scary movies either. I flinch whenever something come within two feet of my face, I scream when someone comes up behind me, and I about have a heart attack when I see a gigantic bug in my room, or anywhere for that matter. And I spilled the fact that I can't handle scary movies to a guy who hates me. I really am an idiot sometimes. Good going, Als.

But he also said he wouldn't tell anyone, and he saved me from having to watch the movie, so I guess he isn't THAT bad. I guess that it was kind of good that someone on tour besides Claire knew, so they could help me out when she wasn't around. I just didn't expect that person to be Matthew. We were now just awkwardly sitting on opposites sides of the couch in silence. Everything about that moment screamed awkward, and I'm already awkward enough on my own, so I couldn't stand it.

"Um...thanks...for, well...you know..." I trailed off, not sure of exactly which of the things he did today I was thanking him for.

"Yeah, it was no problem."

"Well, should we get started on the video?"

Matthew looked at me like I was crazy.

"No. I used that as an excuse. Look, you're new to this whole thing so let me explain how it works. When you let Jack and Jack watch a horror movie and they say they'll come back to watch a different movie with you later, it's a total lie. Sure, they mean to come back, but in the end, they'll have a horror movie marathon. Which means, we're stuck together for the night."

I sighed. "Fine. I'll just go find something else to do."

I got up off the couch and started to walk away and head toward my bunk when I felt Matthew reach out and grab my hand. I turned back around, suddenly confused.

"Wait," Matthew said. "I didn't mean stuck together. I meant that it's just going to be the two of us for the rest of the night. But I think we should watch movies together. I promise no scary movies.It could be fun...Plus, JJ and Gilinsky don't know that this isn't real."

Wow. For a second, I actually thought that he was being nice and actually wanted to spend some time with me. Obviously I was wrong. But, I was in the mood to watch movies and I honestly didn't feel like spending the night hiding out in my bunk, alone.

"Okay. Let's watch some movies," I said with a smile. "I'm going to change into comfier clothes and then I'll pick out some movies. You can go get snacks, deal?"

Matt smiled at me and it appeared to be genuine. "Deal," he said and got up.

"And Espinosa?" He spun around. "No poisoning my food, got it?" I winked to let him know I was kidding, kind of.

Matt laughed. Wait! When did I start calling him Matt? When did we genuinely start joking around with each other? Why did I feel so comfortable around him? What is happening to me? I can't like Matt Espinosa, can I?