Excerpts From My Brain

Fears

People always ask me about what am I afraid of, expecting something as usual as being scared of the dark or spiders, whilst I respond with:

"I'm afraid of three things. The first is to be hurt, and the mere fact that it has happened to me more than once only increases my fear of it. It doesn't matter if it's a physical injury or an emotional one, I'm so scared of it that I can't do the simplest thing like peel a potato because my mind goes right away to think about me getting hurt. The second one is emotions, which I know it's odd because we have multiple emotions and feelings and we can't escape from them no matter how hard we try to do it. My emotions scare me because I don't have one at a time but thousands and these get over my head and impulse me to do the most stupid mistakes. The last one is trust, I'm scared of letting myself get too attached to someone to trust them. In my whole life the people I put my trust on, stabbed me in the back".

All those that had asked me never looked at me the same, they now treat me like I'm so fragile I'm gonna break anytime, or just see me with pity. These same people never actually tried to get to know me besides my fears, like they define me in a level that there's no need to know anything else, which is wrong. I'm bigger than my fears, because unlike the common fears, mines are something you can't get rid off, you live with them constantly your entire life and you're supposed to get to used to them whilst something as usual as being scared of the dark can decrease with just turn on the light.