Not His Type

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

"We still have some things to talk about." He said then he looked at me with a look that was almost pleading. I didn't understand his expression at all. He was like asking me to stay with all his might.

I grabbed two bottles of beer and gave the other one to him. He looked at me as if he wanted me to stop drinking. I said to him, "You know what? If you want me to be honest, alcohol is definitely your friend."

He just sighed as a sign of defeat. Kinuha niya mula sa kamay ko ang isang beer at nagsimula na kaming maglakad. We were like a couple nanaglalakad sa sea shore. This might've been a good picture without the beer in our hands.

"You have to tell me the reason why you've been avoiding me these past few weeks." Sabi niya.

"I'm always the one having to open up to you, don't you think?" Sagot ko.

"What do you mean?"

"You've never told me anything about your life. What your life was like abroad, why you were abroad, and who exactly is Earl Zade Evardome." Sagot ko. Obviously, gulat siya sa mga sinabi ko dahil napatigil siya. Tumingin ako sa kanya and he was smiling at me. Seriously, he's smiling like an idiot in this very serious conversation.

"So you want to know more about me?" He asked, trying to tease me.

I raised an eyebrow at him, "Don't get into weird conclusions."

"Why didn't you ask?"

"I didn't want to look nosy or what. At malay ko ba kung ayaw mong sabihin."

"Well, hindi ko sinabi sayo cause I figured you wouldn't care about it. Had I known that you were this curious, I should've told you some things." Then he winked at me. "So that was the reason? You like me that much?"

"Don't get your hopes up." Sagot ko.

I'm this close to saying that I freakin' like him!! I'm having mized emotions right now. Medyo nagsisisi ako at sumama ako sa kanya para makipag-usap pero ughh, hello pride, can you like go down for a sec?

"I know that's not the only reason." Pagpapatuloy niya. "I've heard everything from Karina. Your relationship with your mother."

This time ako naman ang huminto. Tch, Karina. Hindi ko rin naman masisisi si Karina kung nasabi niya iyon kay Zade, after all he's her brother-in-law. Then everything flashed back again. That day at the mall, how happy they were. How everyone has been asking me to see my mother again like it was such an easy thing to do.

"Zade." Tawag ko sa pangalan niya habang tuloy tuloy na tumutulo ang mga luha ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naiyak nalang ako na parang bata.

"Hey, why are you suddenly crying?" He asked not knowing what to do and started patting my back.

I went close to him and hugged him with my crying voice getting louder. Alcohol really is the weakness of every person, or just me.

"Is it my fault? What if I just disappear, will they be happy? I want to forgive, but I can't. No one would teach me how." Tuloy tuloy kong sagot sa kanya. "Actually, I'm the problem! I'm the one hindering their happiness!"

"Shhh, don't say that. Tell me everything and I'll help you with it."

I cried in his arms for a couple of minutes and he just sat there, accepting everything that I told him. Damn, look at this guy. I was in an attitude the last time we saw each other and here he is, acting like Superman.

"I was fine with not seeing her. Masaya ako, masaya sila. But why do they keep on appearing in my life?" I asked. "I tried so hard not to interfere in their lives and cause a problem, pero sila yung nagpapakita eh. What do they want from me exactly?"