Despair of the heart

Chapter 14 - Hunted

CHAPTER 14: HUNTED

Usagi’s POV

It was around noon when we got home from the cemetery. Misaki’s hysterical crying didn’t falter even after we got back to the apartment. After about an hour of us arriving at the penthouse Misaki quieted down a bit. I laid him on the couch to rest for a while; it had been a tough day.

It was around lunch time and we didn’t have any breakfast this morning so I decided to order something from a nearby restaurant. Keeping an eye on the slowly dozing off Misaki on the couch, I walked to the phone and called to place an order.

When the food finally arrived Misaki was already sleeping. Not having the heart to wake him up from what seemed like a peaceful sleep I put his food in the fridge, grabbing a plate and started eating.  As much as I didn’t want to eat when he hadn’t had anything yet I needed something to keep my strength up. Besides I wasn’t going take a no for an answer this time, I was going to make him eat when he woke up.

After a few bites I decided that that was enough for now. I wrapped the leftovers and put it in the fridge for a later time. I went back to Misaki’s side and sat on the ground right next to his head. With my fingers running through his hair I leaned against the couch.

I was glad that he was on a break right now or it would have been a pain to deal with university. I looked beyond the window at the sky after I had noticed how dark it was for this time of the day. The sky was filled with black clouds.

It seems like it’s going to be raining heavily today…

Not wanting to leave Misaki and not wanting to wake him either I stayed there waiting and praying that when he woke up it wouldn’t be as bad as it was before he fell asleep.

Misaki’s POV

Mother, father…nii-chan…

I just couldn’t believe that this whole thing was real. How could it be real…? Thoughts and memories filled my mind. I tried to stop crying. I have been trying the whole day. I tried so very hard not to fall apart but the moment I finally realized how cruel life was I just couldn’t take it anymore.

Usagi-san drove us home after the cemetery. He let me cry my heart out in his arms without complaining. I felt so lost and defeated, as if the world had turned against me.  I just couldn’t stop thinking about what it was that I had done that was so terrible that I would be punished in this brutal, painful way.

When I woke up on the couch Usagi-san was asleep against it on the ground. I got up as soundlessly as I could, not wanting to wake him and took the light blanket that was on me and covering him with it after I had gotten up.

My chest still felt tight, it was painful. I headed into the kitchen deciding to make some tea thinking that it might somehow help. I grabbed the kettle filling it with water then waited for it to boil after I had placed it on the stove.

I wanted to organize my thoughts. I couldn’t sulk around forever. This will just bring everyone around me down and that’s the last thing I wanted. I don’t want to trouble anyone, especially Usagi-san.

Nii-chan is gone. Mother and father are gone and have been for a long time. All hit by a car. On a rainy day… same date…twelve years apart…

Why…?

I could feel my throat tighten at the facts. I can’t… I just can’t keep thinking about it… it hurts so, so much… I could feel the tears gather in my eyes.

The whistling sound of the kettle pulled me back to reality. Hurriedly turned the stove off not wanting the sound to wake Usagi-san up. I started to mix the tea with the sugar in the mug that I had grabbed from the upper shelf.