Despair of the heart

Chapter 23 - Concern & Distraction

CHAPTER 23: Concern & Distraction

Misaki's POV

Usagi-san got out of the car in the parking lot of the building we reside in. I opened the passenger door and was about to get out when I remembered that I had no shoes on. I sighed, deciding that it was just not worth it, and finally placed a foot on the ground of the parking lot.

I saw a shadow hover over me and looked up to see Usagi-san, standing with both arms crossed across his chest and a cigarette bud hanging from his lip as he looked down at me. "What do you think you're doing?"

"…Getting out of the car…?"

"You heard Kusama-san. You can't walk."

"He didn't say that. He just said I couldn't walk in the hos…"

"You are too weak to stand up on your own. Besides you don't have any shoes on. The last thing you need is to catch a cold on top of what you are dealing with…" He paused once my head dropped.

I felt guilty for getting sick, being depressed over my brother, and also making Usagi-san deal with me because I'm too weak to take care of myself. But… I can't help it… I need him…I want him…

I felt a hand drop onto my messy heir and mess it up even more. I closed my eyes tight at his touch. "Usagi-san…" I whined. His hand slowed to a caress and started to slowly run through my hair. It felt good… peaceful… familiar…

He then said in a soft voice "I am not talking about what you're thinking about…" I looked up, not sure how he knew what I was thinking. "I only don't want you to get any sicker. All I want is for you to get better… and fast...

"… I love taking care of you Misaki… I really do and I wish that you would let me do it more often, but… I want to take care of you when you aren't suffering this much… When you don't actually need me, but because I want to spoil my Misaki…" I felt the heat rise to my cheeks at Usagi's kind, embarrassing words "I will always be there for you…" He always seems to know what I'm thinking without me opening my mouth. I don't know how he does it… but I'm glad that I don't have to say everything all the time… I'm glad…

I averted my eyes quickly, as I was not able to hold his gaze after his words. I love him so much, but he always says such embarrassing things. Even if he is just saying 'hello' it irritates me. I always wonder how it is so easy for him to say things like that…

"Can we go home already…?" I mumbled as I almost got out of the car. He just placed a hand on my shoulder, gently pushing me back into my seat.

"Not until you let me carry you…"

"I said there is no need…"

"And you know that I could wait all night here. I already slept most of the day away, so I can keep at it till tomorrow morning and you know it… So just give up Misaki…" he said with his annoying, know-it-all, famous smirk.

Seeing as he was actually telling the truth and that I had no way out of this, I let out the heaviest of sighs before I said, my face still turned away, "Fine already…"

I heard him chuckle before he said "So Misaki, love, is it going to be a piggy back rid or my favorite… bridal style?"

I turned to him and snapped "Listen you! I'm too tired for this, so there better not be any funny business! And you already know that I'll never agree to be carried like a bride because first, I'm a man and second I…" I was interrupted by the loudest of chuckles I've heard in a while…

"Calm down kid," he said still laughing and ruffling my hair. "I'm just kidding. Come on, let's go…" he said as he dumped the cigarette bud on the ground and stepped on it. He then turned around and knelt down so I would get on his back. "Come on, get on. Let's get you to bed."