Why? (Jin x Reader)

9

"Y/N!!!" Seokjin screamed as sharp pain shot through my body. As I fell to my knees, security tackled Eunbi down and confiscated her weapons. Red spread across my shirt from my waist as blood gushed out from the wound. "Y/N, WHY??!!" Seokjin kneeled down and applied pressure to the wound. The ambulance was immediately called and Eunbi was arrested. I was rushed to the emergency room and luckily, I didn't bleed out too much. 

I woke up in the hospital and found Seokjin sitting beside me with his face buried in his hands. It didn't take me long to realise he was crying. "Seokjin, why are you crying?" I asked softly. He immediately lifted his head and looked at me in surprise.

"You're awake." He said as he wiped his tears.

"Yeah-"

"Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, of course." I tried to sit up, but pain shot through my body. I winced and clutched my bandaged waist. 

"Just lie down." Seokjin hurriedly made me lie back down on the hospital bed. As he sat back down on his chair, he sighed shakily.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Are you kidding me? You're in a hospital and you're asking me if I'm okay?"

"You were crying though.."

"You got shot for god's sake!"

"So what? I'm fine now, it was all sorted. Can you answer my question now?"

"... I'm fine."

"Then why were you crying then?"

"I..." He looked like he was about to cry again. "Because you got hurt because of me." He whispered shakily.

"What are you talking about, Seokjin? It's because of Eunbi that I got shot." He started to cry again. "It's not your fault!" I managed to sit up.

"I dragged you into all this." He buried his face in his hands.

"No you didn't-"

"I shouldn't have stayed with you. I could have just stayed in a hotel or something. I shouldn't have gotten you involved."

"Seokjin, please don't blame yourself."

"That bullet was meant for me. I should have been the one who was shot."

"No, don't think like that!"

"Why did you do it, Y/N? Why?" He raised his voice slightly and lifted his head to look at me with teary eyes.

"I.."

"Why?! It wasn't meant for you!"

"I don't know why I did it! I just did!"

"You shouldn't have done that, you should have let me get shot!" He stood up as he raised his voice. 

"No! I would never do that!"

"Why not?!"

"Because your life is worth so much more than mine is and it always will be!" I accidentally raised my voice at him. He stepped back and his eyes widened.

"What... What do you mean?"

"I would let her kill me if it meant that you wouldn't be hurt. I would sacrifice myself for you because if I died, nothing changes. I have no family, I have no friends, I have no one who would miss me. So many people admire and rely on you so much and would have no where to go without you. I am one of those people..." I hung my head down, letting my hair hide the tears building up in my eyes. "It's because of you that I have everything I have. You gave me a job and shelter that I never even dreamed of having. After everything you've done for me, do you really think that I can just sit back and watch you get hurt like that?"