Why? (Jin x Reader)

18

I was about to leave the hospital as I was discharged and was getting a final check up. I had become depressed due to the break up and felt lost without Seokjin. I had remembered everything which made everything much more painful. The doctor changed my dressing before telling me that I was ready to be officially discharged. I felt no excitement, I felt no joy. I felt nothing.

I was getting ready to leave and Seokjin's words lingered in my head. "I love you too much... It was a pleasure to be your first partner, but I guess I wasn't the right one for you... I'll never find anyone better than you." I couldn't stop my eyes from brimming with tears. 'I love you too much to let you go...' I made my way to the exit, dragging my feet and looking down at the floor.

Suddenly, there was screaming. Something about a man on the rooftop, trying to commit suicide. I didn't think anything of it at first until I heard the man's name. I spun around to see doctors sprinting to the elevators. Without thinking, my legs started moving on their own. I sprinted as fast as I could to the elevator. The doors started to close as the doctors slipped in, making me sprint faster. Just as the doors were about to touch, I jammed my hand in between, stopping the doors and making them open again. I jumped in and quickly pressed the close button. I didn't notice the tears running down my cheeks as the elevator took us to the rooftop. I was never religious, but I unconsciously muttered prayers to every god I could think of.

The doors finally opened at the rooftop and Seokjin was standing on the edge with his toes hanging off. I sprinted toward him despite all the doctors telling me to stop. Breaking up with me was hard enough, but if he killed himself, who knows what I'll do? He lifted his foot, noticing that everyone had already made it to the rooftop, and hung it over the edge. My stitches opened from running too fast and started to bleed, but I didn't care. He was starting to lean forward when I ran faster than I ever had before, ignoring the immense pain shooting through my whole body. Adrenaline shot through my veins as he tilted further and further forward. Just as he was about to fall, I grabbed his shirt and pulled him back onto the rooftop. We both fell back and spots of blood splatted onto the floor as my legs hit the ground.

"Y-Y/N?" Seokjin asked in shock, staring at me with wide eyes. I quickly sat up and grabbed his collar. 

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" I screamed, shaking him. "WHY WOULD YOU EVER THINK OF DOING THAT?!" 

"W-W-What are you doing here?" I became infuriated and slapped him across the face. The doctors froze in shock as Seokjin clutched his cheek.

"You can't leave me like that!" I squeaked, my voice becoming weak. I hit his chest pathetically with my small, shaking fists. "You can't do that.." Everyone was frozen in shock, not sure if I was absolutely crazy or not. Even Seokjin was dazed. "Don't leave me... Please..." I whispered weakly, hanging my head down and letting my hair cover my face.

"But Eunbi... She'll stop if I die..." He whispered shakily. "No one else will have to get involved. No one else will have to die."

"Then take me with you.." I slowly rose my head to meet his eyes. "If you're going then I'm coming with you."

"I-I-I.. No, you can't..."

"If you die then I'll kill myself anyway."

"No! You can't do that!"

"Then stop me. Walk away from here and stop me." I said desperately. My hands fell weakly by my sides, landing by his hands. He didn't respond at first, but soon threaded his fingers between mine and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm sorry..." He whispered before standing up.

"NO!" I screamed in hysteria. He stepped over the edge, intending to fall, but I grabbed his shirt and pulled him back down. "YOU CAN'T DO THIS! PLEASE! YOU'RE ALL I HAVE, I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!" He tried to stand back, up but I held him down.

"I HAVE TO DO THIS!" Seokjin shouted back, tears streaming down his face as he wrestled me.

"IF YOU JUMP THEN I WILL JUMP RIGHT AFTER YOU!"

"NO, YOU WON'T!"

"YOU ARE THE ONLY REASON I LIVE! YOU'RE ALL I HAVE! I CAN'T STAND WATCHING YOU DIE LIKE THIS!!" 

"Dammit Y/N.. Why are you doing this to me?" He sobbed, becoming weak and letting me pin him down.

"Why do you think I took a bullet for you twice? Why do you think I ran here and let my legs bleed? I love you too much to see you get hurt-"

"YOUR LEGS! YOUR STITCHES OPENED!" Seokjin shouted, pointing to my legs. He ordered the stunned doctors to quickly help me, making them snap out of their daze and rush to my aid. Thankfully, it distracted Seokjin from jumping as he came back into the hospital with me.