The story of James and Lily

Badly kept secret

Lily's pov
It's been three days since the pregnancy scare and we decided not to tell any of our friends......of course that didn't last long.
"Lily oh my God" Alice gasps staring at me with wide eyes. "Do you wish it was positive?"
"I..don't know...i mean I guess not, it would make our lives so much harder but still" I say trailing off with the hope that she'd get the idea of what I was trying to say. Hearing how excited James was made me a little disappointed when it came out negative, but I have to be realistic and having a baby right now defiantly is not realistic.

"Who the hell would want a kid now" Mar asks, sneering at the idea of it. She really is opposed to the idea of rushing into anything, marriage and babies not exactly being in her plan any time soon.
"Yeah well you hate kids sooo" I half laugh at her. "I don't hate them...they're just not my favorite thing in the world" she states sarcastically, twirling a piece of her hair around in her fingers. Alice scowls at her and turns back to me "not everyone is afraid of commitment Marlene" she sighs, rolling her eyes and standing up to come and sit beside me. "I'm not afraid of commitment" Mar spits sitting up in her chair to look at us. "Come on Mar...you are a little" I add, smiling weakly. "Am not" she demands standing up. "I just don't think there's any need to throw your life away so soon. We're 17, 17 years old, why the rush to settle down so quickly"
"And I suppose that's aimed at me" Alice says not looking impressed. It's not a secret that Marlene was skeptical about Frank and Alice's engagement so young but it isn't something that is spoke about very often and mostly avoided at all costs. "No Al, come on I'm just saying..."
"Yeah I know what you're saying and I'm down hearing it thank you very much" Alice interrupts as she stands up and stalks towards the door. "Al don't" I call after her but she's already left before I can even get out of my seat.

Marlene comes over and collapses down next to me with a sigh. "You know what I meant right?" She asks, looking over at me.
"Yeah I know what you meant...but I also get why Alice is upset. It's not like her family were thrilled with the idea and that hasn't been easy on her, let alone one of her best friends crapping all over it as well. She's just stressed....and you do have an issue with commitment" I tell her truthfully.
"I know..." she groans laying down to rest her head on my lap. "I just don't think the way you two do okay, I can't help it. I'm happy for Alice I really and and if you and James get engaged I'll be happy for you as well, but I've said it before Lil, I just don't agree with it."
"I know you don't....but maybe just keep it to yourself as much as you can" I smile down at her, Marlene means well she really does and telling us her opinions is part of being a good friend but sometimes things are best left unsaid and in this situation I think that's ones of those times.

"That's weird though....that you might of been telling us you were pregnant today rather than that you just thought you were" she says shaking her head, "that's mad"
"Yeah..it is" I agree.
"You two need to be more careful"
"Mar" I scold slapping her arm and trying to keep from laughing.
"What?! You do"

James's pov
Although we planned to keep the false alarm to ourselves I need someone else to talk to about it all other than Lily and I know she'll forgive me for telling the boys, it's a big thing to go though alone.
"So prongs...how are things in paradise?" Sirius  sighs dramatically, we're in their dorm and each sitting on our own beds. Remus say reading in his, Peter eating a chocolate frog and Sirius laying flat of his back looking up at the ceiling. "Yeah alright.......Lily though she was pregnant" I mumble not having to wait long for a response. Peter starts chocking and Sirius rolls of the bed, hitting the ground with a thud and bringing everything that was on his bedside cabinet down with him. Remus jumps up and starts hitting Peter on the back as he coughs violently and I just sit and wait patiently for the commotion to stop.
It could of gone worse I suppose.

"You though what?" Peter shrieks, being the first one to speak, the silent not lasting long at all. I don't get a chance to speak before I'm bombarded with questions.
"How long did you think it?"
"Why didn't you tell us?"
"When did it all happen?"
"How could you not of told us?"
"You're only telling us this now?!"
"Is that why you two when off together the other day?"
"WAIT...wait" Remus interrupts, pitting his hands up to silence the other two. "Did you want it to be positive?" He asks.
The question apparently caught their attention as well because Sirius and Peter instantly turned to look at me awaiting an answer. Padfoot pulling himself back up to sit on his bed.
"I...don't know" I stutter unsure myself of what I actually felt. "I was excited sure....but come on, I'm 17, I'm not ready to be a dad" I laugh without humor, trying to disregard the excitement part. "Thank god" Sirius breathes clutching his chest. "You don't need to rush mate, you've got plenty of time for all that"
"Sirius is right James, that'll all come in due time, just enjoy being young while you still can" Moony smiles reassuringly sitting down next to Peter. "Yeah, yeah you're right. I just wanted to tell you" I say nodding and taking a deep breath. "Anyway I ah...I better go, I said I'd meet Lily before dinner" with that I get up and leave, replying to the array of goodbyes as the door closes behind me.

I start walking towards the heads dorms, my hands in my pockets and head bowed to avoid talking to anyone. The confusion I felt before all being brought back up again after the short conversation with my friends, I guess it's a difficult thing to explain to someone, especially at our age. I wasn't expecting them to understand. "JAMES, Mate wait up" I hear Sirius's voice call. I turn and wait for him as he jogs over to me. "You alright? You seemed off back there" he asks pulling me to start walking in the direction I was heading again. "Yeah...I guess it just got me thinking you know" I tell him with a shrug. "Well good...good" he says trailing off and leaving us in quiet for a couple minutes. "I know I'm probably not the best person to talk to about stuff like that and yeah I'm slightly bias in the way that I don't see the point in committing to much right now when we're so young so of course I won't say that I think you and lil should have a kid right now" he says breaking the silence, I nod in agreement. "But if you do want to talk about it...properly, then you know I'm here for you."
I smile and pat his shoulder "thanks mate I know you are...and we aren't planning anything right now. Like you said...we've got plenty of time"