First Shades of Love {WATTYS 2018}

Where the Party At?

My Friday nights are always the same for the last couple of months. Go to a college party with my high school friend Chrissy, that I reconnected with when I started working at the cafe. She graduated high school early so she's 3 years younger then I am. It always seems like the same people are at these parties. Which is surprising cause it's not a small university.

 Tonight we are at an apartment complex party. There are around 10 apartments open to this huge party. I can hear all different kinds of music blasting through the courtyard. There are the typical drunk girls dancing full-on drunk white girl style, guys trying to spit game at girls way out of their league, "couples" making out in every corner, beer cans, bottles, and red cups all over the ground. I don't mind this being my life right now. After the breakup with Greg, the distraction is nice. There's no better way to forget your ex than to surround yourself with people having the time of their lives. You see them so carefree and just want to be that carefree. You want the demons of your past to disappear. It makes me wonder if they ever had bad things happen to them or if they are like me, are just trying to do whatever they can to run from the past and forget even if it's just for a couple hours.

I look around the party as I fill my red solo cup up with cheap beer from a keg, trying to see if I can find my college party hottie. We always seem to be at the same parties. We've only done idle chat in passing. I refuse to make the first move. I know he's into me though. His eyes say let's fuck but he's a little cocky and waits for the girl to make the first move. Well, I'm not going to be that girl. If he wants this for the night then he's gonna have to work for it. 

Since I just got out of a serious relationship with Greg (massive eye roll), I don't really want anything that goes past one night. Greg broke my heart. We were talking about getting married, kids, the whole works. I realize now talking about things like that at 20 is completely unrealistic. Especially when you open up to his roommate one drunk night about an ex that used to beat the crap out of you because you wouldn't sleep with him and he tells your boyfriend that you were talking about him. I kept telling Greg till I was blue in the face that I was talking about my ex when I was 14 and not him. Greg refused to believe me. So he didn't talk to me for days even though I was living with him. He didn't talk to me until I gave him a hand job in the movie theater. It was that moment that I realized he was just a controlling asshole. So when he left to go visit his parents for Christmas I moved all my shit out of his place and moved back home. He was the third guy I've ever been with and the second guy I ever loved. I seem to jump in head first into being serious. I lead too much with my heart and it always gets me completely crushed. I seem to pick all the controlling assholes. 

"I see you made it?" I look up and there's my party hottie. Damn, he looks so good tonight. His dark brown almost black hair is neatly styled, his light brown eyes are looking me up and down drinking me in. I wore my long straight brown hair down, an open back black shirt, jean shorts, and flip-flops. I was going for subtle sexy tonight. The way he's looking at me says I achieved that goal. 

"So you were looking for me huh?" I take a drink of my beer to hide the smile. I know he's so close to cracking. One point for Nicole. "Well, I'm going to go dance." I start to walk away and brush my side against arm purposely. I've always been such a huge flirt. I can't help it. It's in my nature, especially being a Gemini. He grabs my waist. His touch is soft yet dominate. That's actually a promising start.

"Why don't we go somewhere a little more.... quite?" His scent fills my nose and his smile makes me so wet. I've been crushing on this guy for a bit now and I really want to know what he can do to my body but he's got to work harder than that.

"The night just started. Why don't we go take some shots and play kings cup?" Kings cup is a good drinking game to play if you want to get drunk fast. If I'm about to have my first one night stand I need to have more liquid courage on board.