First Shades of Love {WATTYS 2018}

Push

I finally fell asleep after hours of analyzing the entire night trying to figure out what would make Dodge change and turn cold. Maybe I need to try harder to let him in? Maybe he thinks that I'm more trouble then I'm worth? Maybe I'm a bad lay? Maybe I'm not good enough? Maybe I need to try harder? Maybe now that he got he wanted? Maybe he's done with me now that he got me to break down my walls? All these questions and maybe's swirl through my mind like a black hole of doubt.

"Good morning Nicole." Dodge says rolling over and pressing his very evident hard on against my back and starts to kiss my neck. When his hand wraps around me and starts playing with my nipples, I began to think maybe I'm overthinking everything. As his hand trails down between my legs all thoughts of doubt leave my mind. All that's left is how his touch makes me forget everything and how I so badly want to please him. I want to be desired and wanted by him.

"Good morning...Oh god.." I try to say good morning but the pleasure from his fingers moving in and out of me makes me moan out in pleasure.

I roll on my back as he continues to give me pleasure. My hips begin to move with his hand. Just as I'm about to cum he climbs on top and enters me. He takes my hands in his and intertwines his fingers with mine. His eyes lock on mine as he slowly moves in and out, his look is soft and turns me to putty. His touch is tender and passionate. He feels so good that I start to get lost in the pleasure and close my eyes.

"Look at me, Nicole. I want to see you and you to see me. Stay in this moment with me."

I open my eyes and look deep into his and his hands squeeze mine. He leans down and kisses my lips. I try with all my will power to be here with him but this is so fucking intense. My heart wants to cry out to him to never leave me. I feel every wall I have up completely collapse. The exact moment that happens is the exact moment my orgasm hits me like freight train. My body shakes and back arches. I keep eye contact with him through it all. The smirk that creeps on his face tells me that he knows exactly what happened, that I am now his, that I would do anything just to make him happy. I guess I'll find out if that's a good or bad thing. His own orgasm was right behind mine. Before I know it I'm cumming again with him.

"Yeeesss! Fuck me!!" He hisses out through clenched teeth as his final trust goes so deep it feels like he hit my stomach. My legs wrap tight around him as his jerks bring in the final wave of my orgasm.

His sweaty body falls onto mine and our breathing is erratic, our hearts were beating so hard I thought that at one point they were trying to break out of our chest to find each other. I don't know how long we were lying there, with him still inside of me mind you. When he finally rolled off me, I went to roll on my side to put my arm around him but he got out of bed before I could.

"What's going on with you Dodge?" I ask sitting up pulling the covers up to cover myself up.

"What do you mean?" He says pulling his boxers on

"What do I mean? Are you kidding?" I say more meekly then pissed

"Clearly I'm not. I thought we just had a great time. Did we not?"

"Yeah we did but you act so strange after the fact. Is it me?" I say quietly like it's just a breath

"Hey, look at me Nicole." He says climbing back on the bed and lifting my chin up with his index finger. "Nicole you're great but don't rush this. Let's just enjoy what this is. Ok?" He says kissing my forehead and getting off the bed.

What this is? What is this? I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to scream at him for feeling like he's just toying with my emotions. I want to tell him to go fuck himself. I want to tell him he's an asshole but I don't. Instead I just nod my head and keep my mouth shut. Dodge isn't a bad guy. He said he doesn't do relationships. I was dumb to think that one night between the sheets would change that. How fucking naive am I?