Ruthanna
Chapter twelve
My months with Shawn have flown by.
Zoie comes around fairly often, they get along great-we've even gone on several bike rides.
liz comes by just as often as she can, and it's nice to see how well he gets along with my friends, and my family. He's even stood up for me around my sister's several times, which of course lead them to the assumption that we are dating, which isn't at all true.
We are extremely close, anyone can see. I've told him nearly everything. Depression, anxiety, old friends, family problems...and I don't feel ashamed or embarrassed. And he tells me about how he was suicidal when he was younger. About how hard it was on him when he became famous and was gone from his family all of the time.
We share stories about how we both used to be bullied, and it's just like talking to liz or Zoie.
He feels familiar.
Also, he's been living in a hotel for six months now. It really must suck, but I'm glad that he hasn't left yet.
I groan, then silence my alarm and sit up.
Liz: where are you???? I'm going to be at the highschool soon.
Liz: RUTHANNA LOUISE DO NT MAKE ME BE HERE ALINE FKSJHCKFHFJDJCHGXJ
Liz: you're coming to school today. On my way to your house.
Shawn: hey, you up?
Shawn: I can't sleep.
Shawn: it's unreasonable to be up at this hour.
Shawn: Hello?
Shawn: you're gonna be late for school...
Shawn: wake up.
Shawn: please have mercy on your grades. Take it easy on your friends. I know that you don't want to fail.
Shawn: okay yeah that sucked.
Shawn: I'm ashamed.
Shawn: I fully regret my actions.
I groan, knowing that I have ten minutes before I've got to walk out the door and Liz will be here in five.
I sit up.
Message To: Shawn
Me: Shawn, you fail at life.
Me: your other songs are amazing, but then....not this. No.
Me: Also, I'm awake.
Message to: Liz.
Me: LIZ clam. I'm up. Getting ready. You can still come over if you want.
Liz: already on my way. Getting ready to cross the street.
I roll my eyes and climb out of bed, throwing on my black ripped skinny jeans and cute red shirt I got from ross a while ago.
Liz walks into my room-without knocking, which annoys me-while I'm fixing my hair.
"Cmon, diaper butt, let's go."
"You're rushing me to get out the door? No. Sit down and tell me about Dean while I get ready."
"Now," I warn when she gives me a dirty look.
She sits on the edge of my bed and gives me an especially nasty look while I do a crown braid.
"Well, it's just...what if last year, he didn't mean to hurt me? Maybe he got scared. And of course I shouldn't have acted like that in Kansas City, and he looked genuinely upset about it.
But I've got to avoid him now. Neither of us said a word at Jane's house for a whole hour, except for when I said "I don't have a boyfriend, I made a stupid decision because I didn't know that that girl was your sister." And he said 'oh.' Umm. Now we are just avoiding each other."
"Don't you have homeroom together?"
She doesn't answer, just glares. I put on my chapstick and sense that it's time to change the subject.
"It's too bad Shawn isn't in high school with us. Stupid. He shouldn't have turned 19."
Now it's her turn to laugh.
"Are you too still pretending to be 'just friends'?"
Now it's my turn to glare.
"We aren't pretending. We are friends, best friends. Shawn makes me laugh, he comforts me. He feels like home. Don't worry, you aren't getting replaced."
She laughs.
"You wouldn't ever replace me, it's not possible.
And "best friends"...okay, if you say so."
I groan, deciding not to argue.
"Did you see the meme Zoie posted last night?"
I ask, as liz drags me out the door to yet another boring day of school.
Speaking of school...it causes headaches. Also if I just walked into her room like that, she might kill me
