Shawn
Chapter twenty four
Liz calls me, stress evident in her voice.
"Are you going to talk to Ruth?" She asks, quietly.
I sigh, hoping that I won't get into trouble.
"You know, I love her so much. More than Lauren, more than anyone. I feel so connected to her already and we've barely even kissed."
I pause for a minute, hearing a car door slam shut on the other end.
"But I can't be the one to always fix everything, liz," I say and my voice breaks.
"She wouldn't even let me explain. So I'm done on this one. This fight, its continuing until she does something about it. How do I know that she actually really loves me?"
Liz sighs. "She loves you, Shawn. Don't be a freaking idiot. I have to go, just stay at your apartment for me okay? Love you."
She hangs up and I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling fully clothed and knowing that sleep is a million miles away.
After what seems like hours, a quiet knock sounds on the door.
I was expecting liz but she usually either knocks loud enough to wake the whole building up or walks right in.
Nervous, I open the door to see Ruthanna standing there, teary eyed and shaking.
I have to resist the urge to hug her.
She walks past me, grabbing my hand and setting us both on the edge of my bed after she closes the door.
"Shawn," she says so quiet that it's almost a whisper.
"I'm so sorry. Yes, I am extremely hurt about Morgan. That you-that you slept with a girl from my school, especially her. The worst."
She clears her throat.
"But now I know the whole story. It was my fault, I shouldn't have put you through all of that back when we first got together. You got drunk because of me, and that led to the hookup. But I know it didn't mean anything to you, and so screw her because she's an idiot and you know what? I don't even care."
I'm crying now, shaking.
"We can't keep going on like this, Ruth," I say.
I can only pray that she knows how to fix this, because I'm broken and standing alone on the edge of a cliff.
Liz
I sigh, laying my head on Dean's shoulder.
Today has literally been so stressful.
Ruth and Shawn have so much drama going on right now and there's no way I'm getting in the middle of it, not today.
I love them both but this is something that SHANANNA needs to figure out without liz.
"Are you okay, babe?"
I still get butterflies in my stomach whenever Dean calls me 'babe'. At first, I hated it but now it's grown on me.
"I just can't believe it. About my cousin? Things were finally going good for him. He's such an amazing person, and..and I'm scared."
I start to cry and Dean strokes my hair, giving me a hug which is exactly what I need at the moment.
"I can't handle it whenever people die," I tell him.
"It hurts so bad every time. I'm really not doing well,"
And I cry because I can't talk anymore.
I want to worry about Ruth and Shawn. Know how things are going.
But right now, there's so much going on inside of my head that I don't know how to deal with it.
"Everything's fine, beautiful," Dean murmurs to me.
"It's okay. I love you."
I try to say I love you too, but I don't think he could really understand.
And so we comfort each other all night, perfectly happy in our moment of broken bliss.
The past few chapters have been really hard to write.😬
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