Randomness of the Queen: Zweiter Teil

Cancer

You know what scares the absolute fuck outta me?

Cancer

I've lost my papa, my grandaddy, one of my aunts, and a close friend to this dreaded disease...all in different forms. I have another aunt as well as one of very best friends that's battled breast cancer for years, and with both of them it comes back worse every time.

I lost my ex-fil, who was really more like an actual dad, to it also. I think his was the hardest for me simply because I took care of him for the last 4 mos of his life, up til the very second he took his last breath.

Cancer is some scary fucking shit, let me just tell you.

And now my mom...she's battled 2 types of skin for yrs now. This time it's worse. This horrid tumor that's taken over half her beautiful face makes me sick. And I found out from my brother that she's starting radiation therapy today...and will get it every single day for 6 wks...SIX FUCKING WEEKS...on top of the dialysis she already gets 4 times a wk for end stage renal and liver failure. Wtf is 6 wks of radiation gonna do to her already fragile body?

Radiation therapy is some scary shit too, from what I've been reading.

One thing I'll never understand, no matter how old I get or how much I keep learning, is WHY THE FUCK IS THERE SOMETHING THIS HORRID ON THIS EARTH?!

The only explanation I can think of is this world is so fucked up already so why not throw some horribly fucked up disease that has no cure and destroys people's lives in just for the hell of it.

Fuck cancer