the outsiders messages 3

38

April 28th

Darry: Elena.
Darry: Hello?
Elena: What.
Darry: Is it true?
Elena: No. Because i'm totally the type of person to lie about that.
Darry: Elena..
Elena: You don't get to hate my guts and pretend i don't exist, and then acknowledge me when something happens, just to make you feel like better about yourself.
Elena: I don't need your fucking pity Darry.
Darry: Jesus Elena.
Darry: Can we just talk, please?
Elena: What could you possibly want to talk about?
Darry: Are you okay?
Elena: Really Darry i don't want your fucking charity.
Darry: Okay i fucked up. I shouldn't have said what i did to you, and i'm not apologizing because of what happened and i feel bad. I'm apologizing because i've been think about how much of a dick i am for a while. You didn't deserve that.
Darry: I couldn't be there for you, so i feel like a piece of shit.
Darry: I'm sorry Elena. I just wanna make sure you're okay.
Elena: I'm fine.
Darry: Don't lie to me.
Elena: It felt better to tell someone about it, i feel lighter. i feel fine.
Elena: Not happy or sad. Just... fine.
Darry: I'm sorry for what i said to you before.
Elena: You should be.
Elena: However.
Elena: I'm sorry too.
Darry: How long ago did it happen?
Elena: The second month i moved to Cali.
Elena: And that's when the drug habit kicked in.
Elena: I was high enough to not constantly think about what happened, and it felt great. So i was doing it everyday.
Elena: I lost myself i guess.
Darry: Elena..
Elena: Fuck.
Elena: I can't.
Elena: I gotta go Darry.
Elena: I'm sorry.
Elena: Bye.