i needed love, but you're too late now

chapter 1

                        may 15 2017
                    namjoon's perspective

hello, my name is kim namjoon, and i'm a depressed sack of potatoes. all i do is think about all of my mistakes, cry when i'm alone, and fantasize about being dead. can you blame me? if you hung around all of my friends you would feel the same. my first friend is kim seokjin. he's the most handsome man that i've ever seen, everyone always swoons over him, and if you ever get a chance to hear his beautiful voice, you'll feel weak in your knees. my second friend is min yoongi. he's an absolute genius when it comes to writing songs, he's the king of rapping, and he just happens to be dating seokjin. my third friend is jung hoseok. he's the sweetest person you'll ever meet, he is as well an amazing rapper like yoongi, he should be on dancing with the stars, and he's dating youngjae from got7. my fourth friend is park jimin. he's the cutest little mochi you will ever know, his vocals are beautiful, and he's a fantastic dancer. my next friend is kim taehyung. he's incredibly funny, he has the cutest boxy smile, he slays vocals and dancing, and he's dating jimin. my last friend is jeon jungkook. oh where do i even start with jungkook. he's the most perfect boy i have ever met. his nickname is literally the golden maknae, there's nothing that he can't do. he is so beautiful, talented, funny, generous, intelligent, and caring. i wish i had the power to call him mine but that'll never happen. then there's me, disappointing, ugly, fat, kim namjoon. i can't do anything right, all i do is mess everything up, and that includes everyone's lives. i can't dance or sing for the life of me. i try to make attempts to rap but all i do is get the words wrong and ruin everything. one final thing, i plan on killing myself soon. i can't withstand the pain and torture of living my life anymore. i mean, what's the point of living when no one would even notice that you're gone.