i needed love, but you're too late now

chapter 2

                              may 23 2017
                           namjoon's perspective

tomorrow is monday and i really don't want to go through another week of humiliation and sadness at college. the people who go to my school always make me hate myself more and more everyday, which is a really hard thing to do. whenever i'm alone they always corner me and beat me up until i'm unconscious. because of them doing this, i always have to cover my cuts and bruises that they give me from my friends. but some of the cuts i get aren't from them, they're from myself. i cut myself every single day. i can't help it, it's the only thing that takes away the pain i'm feeling. but that relaxing feeling only last for so long, then i have to wait a while until i can do it again. even though i've been hiding my cuts and bruises from my friends pretty well, it's been getting harder due to the rising temperatures of summer. i think my friends are getting suspicious, especially yoongi hyung. he always knows when something is up with one of us, it's like his sixth sense. i'm actually going to hang out with my friends today, i don't know why i agreed to come though because they would have such a better time if i wasn't there. i wish my selfishness wouldn't get in the way of the enjoyment of my friends but like i said earlier, i ruin everything. that'll soon change though, when i'm gone. the time is not right yet, i want to confess my feelings to jungkook before i go. so that way, when he hates me, i won't have to feel the hatred.

yoongi's perspective

i was getting ready to leave to jimin and tae's house because everyone was free so they planned a boys night out, but while staying inside the whole time. i was happy to be able to catch up with everyone, but there was one person i especially needed to talk to, kim namjoon. i've been noticing that he has been acting really strange recently. it's very weird and i'm friends with taehyung so i'm used to weird but this one was just....different. "yoongi are you ready?" said his beautiful boyfriend jin. "yeah i am" i replied back. "great. then we can leave right now" jin said as he interlocked hands with me. i am luckiest person on earth to have this man be my boyfriend. thinking about jin made me forget something i was supposed to do tonight while everyone was hanging out. 'what was it? oh well if it was really that important i would've remembered it' i thought to myself. tonight was going to be great.