There's a few months after the audition before the show starts recording and it feels strange to be at home with my friends when I know that soon everything'll be different. I only spent about a week with Pentatonix (Scott came up with the name) but it was a pretty intense week. I decide to call my sister Esther, since I haven't spoken to her in a while. We talk for about half an hour until Esther suddenly says "So how long have you had a crush on Kirstie then?"
"What, I don't have a... I mean I only saw her for a week.... When did I say I had a crush on her? She's like 18." Esther just laughs. "Pretty much everything you told me was about her. You mentioned her smile about eight times. Just be careful ok?"
"What do you mean be careful? I don't like her that way and even if I did, why would I need to be careful?"
"Because you obviously care about this group and you don't want to mess that up." We say our goodbyes and hang up the phone.
About half an hour later I'm still thinking about what Esther said. I barely knew Kirstie. I've only spent a week with her. We'd had some group skype sessions since but that was it. She's sweet but she's only 18 and I'm going to have to perform with her for however long Pentatonix lasts. I don't like her that way, do I? I think back to the first time I saw her and to how good it felt to make her smile. Her smile just keeps popping into my head, no matter how much I try to stop it. I suppose Esther is right but it's not like I can do anything about it. If we do well in the sing-off then we'll be in a group together and it'll be bad for the group and if we do badly then there's no guarantee that I'll see her again.
"Hey guys, why don't we hang out this vacation?" Scott asks during our latest group Skype. "Where would we meet?" Kevin responds. "Well you and Kirstie would probably be coming back to Texas this summer, right?" Mitch asks. I feel kind of sorry for him sometimes, both of his best friends off at college and he's stuck in high school. "Yep." Kirstie answers "that's the plan anyway."
"So I guess we're going to Arlington then." Kevin grins. "Avi, we can fly together if you want?"
"Sure man, sounds good." Scott and I are both in southern California so it makes sense for us to travel together. "I'm so excited to see you all again!" Kirstie says and everyone laughs at the cute, squeaky voice she puts on. "So guys, what did you think of Beyoncé's new video?"
"Avi!" Scott yells as he pulls me into a bear hug. We're in the airport waiting lounge before our flight to Dallas. "Hey man. How are you doing?"
"Good thanks, you okay?" I nod and he smiles. "You looking forward to seeing everyone?" He grins at me. "Of course I am, are you looking forward to seeing Kirstie?" I do a double take before mumbling "what, I don't...why would I?" Scott just laughs.
"Avi, I've seen a lot of guys crush on Kirstie. I know what it looks like by now."
"I'm sorry, I don't plan on doing anything about it I just..."
"Don't apologise." Scott interrupts "there's nothing wrong with it and it's no problem to me. You're a good guy." I nod slightly "I won't do anything about it right now. I don't want to mess things up for the group. If I feel the same way once the competition is over then I'll consider it." Scott smiles at me "It goes without saying that if you hurt her then I'll kill you. If things do work out though, I think you'd be good together."
"It's just a crush Scott I'll be over it in a month."
"Sure you will Avi." Scott winks at me.
