If the Sun refused to Shine: The Story of Lily Maria Page

Chapter 19- I should've quit you

Emily opened her eyes and found herself on her bed. Her worn out mattress molding her body, creaking with every little movement she made. Her blue eyes scanned around her room, and stopped when she saw Alex on her bed. Her eyes welled up with hot tears of anger, and she curled her fingers into a fist until her knuckles turned white. 

"YOU.." she said gritted between her teeth. He was drawn back by her  tone of voice, and he held out a hand to hold her, but she smacked them down, causing him to flinch. She lunged at him, and pinned him down onto the bed by his shoulders. Her tears splashed onto his face. 

"You KNOW he will be back." she said with anger still raging in her voice. She slammed down onto his hips with her hips causing him to yelp in the sudden pain. She smirked. 

"You took me from my daughter. You took my from my friends. You took me from my favourite band. You took me from MY husband." They locked eyes, and she felt her heart twist in knots. The grip on his shoulders weakened, and her tears of anger became tears of sadness. She casted her eyes downward in shame as they continued to roll down onto his body. He quickly sat up. and she flung herself into his arms. 

"But I love you too..." she said in a hush whisper, holding back tears. He softly smiled, and gently grabbed the underside of her jaw. 

"Where are those beautiful eyes?" he asked quietly, in a calming tone. He gently lifted up her jaw so he could see her face. Her face was sticky from the memories, and her eyes lost her colours from the tears that washed it away. 

"Oh baby.." he said sadly. He pulled her into him with his strong arms and held her close. Rubbing his hand up and down her bony back, trying to calm her down. Her body began to tremble again from the sobs that took over her.  She lightly sat up to stop herself from drowning in a lake of her own tears. 

"He loved everything I did and didn't judge me for it. I didn't eat wrong, I didn't make fucking hot chocolate wrong, I didn't WRITE wrong either.." she took a deep breath and glared at him. 

"He loved me for me. Not for something that you wanted me to be." She tried to get off her bed, but he grabbed her arm and kept her down. He hovered above her, his ocean eyes taunting her. 

"You said you'd be mine forever." he growled in her ear, causing her to squirm and send a wave of goosebumps over her skin. 

"He was mine before you." she managed to squeak out before he smashed his lips against hers. She felt her heart begin to race as the kiss grew more intense. She tried to pull away, but he had his hand behind her head to push her back in. She felt tears forming under her eye lids as his tongue slipped into her mouth. Finally he pulled away, with a smirk on his face. He eyed her up and down. She had completely forgotten that she was in her pajamas which consisted of one of Jimmy's shirts that was too big for her, and her blue panties. 

"I know you want me baby." he said with a devilish smirk growing on his face. Her lip began to quiver and she pulled her legs up to her chest and tucked her head into her knees, and all she could smell was her shirt. Jimmy's shirt. That intoxicating smell of cigarettes, hay, and cologne. She missed breathing it in all day when she was around him. She missed his laugh, his soothing accent, his touch, his kiss, his everything. He was romantic, he would sing songs to her in the moonlight as his fingers danced on the frets of an acoustic guitar. 

"I want Jimmy.." she said quietly, still with her soaked face in her knees. Her head suddenly sprang up as she felt his hand on the hem of her panties. She shook her head with anger flaming in her eyes. He kept going though, and rage flooded over her as he began to rub her. 

"Hmm.. Well, you're soaked baby. So you must still love me, right?" he suddenly slammed a finger into her causing her to moan. She  forgot about his touch, and he made her legs like jelly. 

"STOP PLEASE!" she began to cry. Then something in him changed. The lust in his eyes vanished, and it was replaced with concern and sympathy. 

"Baby.. baby I'm sorry.. I dunno what came over me.." he held his hand out to go hold her, but she flinched and screamed, "Please.. please don't hit me." He felt his heart drop. He slowly dragged himself closer to her, and wrapped his arm around her tiny frame. 

"I do love you M.." he said in a whisper. She looked up at him, her eyes now puffy and pink, dried from the floods of tears. She gently placed her soft pink lips against his. 

"I love you too.." 

There was silence. Her eyes looked at one of her Led Zeppelin posters and smirked. She had this feeling. 

They're coming.