CHAPTER 2

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Chapter 2

I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. I know what you're  thinking I'm weak and pathetic, but I just...couldn't.

I walked away from the beach heading toward Rock and Roll. It was a  90's diner not far from the beach. It was another one of my ' spots'.

I walked with my earphones in at the highest volume it could reach. This was my defense. As stupid as it sounded this is what helped me cope, what made me feel strong, strong enough to face the world again. It gave me a little bit of confidence.

As soon as I got inside I headed for my spot. A booth right by the window.

I always sat there. Only this time when I headed for my seat it was already occupied.

By him.

There he was, oblivious to the world, to my existence...to me. The thought of that crushed my heart.

I had only spoken to him a few times only a few words but my heart was his. He didn't know this and he never would but it was true.

I was like clay in his hands. My heart yearned for him. To get to know him. To be... His

I turned away quickly as a tear escaped my eye. I would find another space. I tried to crank my music louder but it was at the max. Ohh stupid things like this  frustrated me. I always got frazzled around him.

 It was like he put my mind into over drive. Whenever I was around him I  would get this... this weird feeling in my stomach, like butterflies and knots all at once and I couldn't stop smiling.

Why... how? How could one person do this to me? Why? Why does he do this to me?

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