Here I was,lying in bed,replaying the day over and over and over in my head.
Why? Why did I do this? Go out of my comfort zone? I know what ur thinking,"Oh, well it's great to go out of ur comfort zone."
No. Not for me
I realised that my heart rate was quickening and I was losing breath. I reached for my pills, I could feel the walls closing in on me, the world grabbing at me, I was losing air. I quickly took my pills and my pump.
See the problem is I'm not 'normal'. Well I wouldn't say 'not normal' just not the same as everyone else. I have problems I guess. Let's just say I don't have the self confidence of even an ant.
I have anxiety, social and normal. New things literally scare me. Also my social awkwardness levels are sky rocketing.
I settled back down and out of nowhere I started crying. Why? Why couldn't I be normal? Why did I have to wring my hands until i had bruises? Why did I have to pinch or scratch myself till I bleed? Why couldn't I just approach people? Why couldn't life just be easy...just be normal
I furiously wiped away the tears with the back of my hand. I hated being pathetic. I hated being weak. I hated being like this
I know what I need. I needed a change. I need to be different, feel different. I need to feel something
If I was forced to live in this scared body then the least I could do is make it my own. Never thought making your OWN body your OWN would be such a difficult task. Well think again because it's one hell of a struggle (that is if your me)
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