Justification | Deetranada AU

chimera

Twelve Weeks Post

Dee stirs, turning onto her side, pulling her blanket closer to her face. She lets the silence and darkness consume her once again as she starts to drift back to sleep.

Movement wakes her and she grumbles, the cover slowly being pulled from her face. 'Wake up, babygirl,' he whispers. Her eyes shoot open to see his face, his curls dangling inches from her face, his body nearing hers. He smirks, placing a gentle kiss on her lips. She smiles, kissing him back, her arms wrapping around him.

His fingertips trace along her body, sending tingles all over. She deepens their kiss, pulling him closer, his body completely engrossed in her own as he lies on her. A growing sense of passion overwhelms her as small moans escape her mouth, his hands caressing and gripping her.

'You don't know how much I missed you, babygirl,'  he growls, attacking her lips again. She nods, quickly removing his shirt as she runs a hand down his chest. 'I miss you too, Juli,' she whispers, pulling him back for another kiss. 

He leaves her lips for her neck, her t-shirt coming over her head before he kisses her chest. She tries to move but can't, his body refusing to let her up. 'You want me to?' he whispers against her skin. He flicks his tongue against her exposed chest, her hitched breath and head nodding giving him the permission he desires.

His hands travel further down her body, his lips following as he leaves kisses over her stomach. She pants as they grow more sensual, each one teasing her. He kisses above the band of her shorts, his hands tugging them down as her body jerks her awake.

She struggles to catch her breath, the darkness of the room startling her. She looks around, settling back into the space. This shit gotta stop, man.

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Five Weeks Pre

(Nova POV)

Why you askin' this?' Nova asks harshly. He sees Dee's eyes flicker with a hint of hurt. 'It's fine, I'll stop,' she says, though it's barely audible. She starts to turn back around when he reaches out for her, pulling her back onto his chest. 

'I didn't mean it like,' Nova begins. 'I don't wanna talk 'bout what happened then, none of that matters 'cept me and you.' 'Okay,' she says quietly. 'You want me to stop?' He looks down at her, her eyes wide despite her expression. He can't say yes. 'No.'

'Will you answer?' she asks. He laughs at her distrust. 'Always.' 'Was she your first,' she blurts out. 'And why,' she adds. His mouth opens but nothing comes out, his mind and mouth not connecting. He bites his lip, feeling her breathing stop as she waits for his answer. 

'Yes,' he says quietly. He watches for changes in her but she remains stonefaced. 'I knew her and JI were doin' stuff,' he begins. 'What?!' she exclaims loudly. He shushes her and she quiets down after a moment of resistance, letting him continue. 'She didn't know but I did. I didn't think it was nothin' serious.' He pauses, feeling a knot form in his throat.

'But it kept happenin' for like six, seven months. And every time I tried to talk to her 'bout it, I was too scared to.' The feel of her hands on his chest encouraging him to continue begins to lessen the load, comforting him as he opens up.