David's POV;I see Liza walk out of the house.
I've officially fucked up.
"Dude..." Scott touches my shoulder and I flinch back.
"Leave me alone." I say and I walk out of the house.**
I open the front door to my house to find an empty home. I have no idea where everyone is nor do I care.I walk over to the mirror and look at myself.
"Are you fucking dumb?"
Why.
Why the hell would I overreact like
that. I'm an idiot. She doesn't like me, I know it. Well, nice going.
I can hear my phone buzzing over and over again, it's the people from the party.
I dress black,
I act cool,
I talk to girls,
I hang out with lots of people but the one time something pure and real comes into my life I fuck it up.
She's perfect.
But for some reason I can't admit that I like her,
I can't admit that whenever I wake up she's the first person I think about.
I can't admit that whenever I get a text from her, I smile like I never have before.
She's probably thinking,
what a dick.
and she's right.
She deserved none of that,
god damn it David. I've never felt like this before and one small mistake. The first time I saw her I knew she was the one, for sure I knew.
I sit on the couch and sink into it. I grab my phone and open iMessage, click Liza's name and type,
-I'm a dick, I'm sorry- , then erase it. I can't say anything to her right now, maybe later. Or never.
I start thinking about her.
Her aroma,
Her face,
Her hair,
Her eyes, Oh her eyes.
Her humour,
Her personality,
Her.
"Stop!" I say that out loud.
I walk into my room and look on my dresser. It's the camera equipment that Liza bought me.
She's too perfect,
for me.I've known her for a little over a week and I'm already hurt,
I'm hurt because she'll never know how I feel, and she'll never feel the same way. Ever since I was young all I wanted was a girlfriend, I didn't want an Xbox or a new bike. I wanted a girlfriend, yeah sure I've had some but none of them felt like it was real. Liza has made my life better in so many ways it's ridiculous.I walk into my room and lay down on my bed. I look to my side table and see my camera, I turn it on and look through the I footage.
As I'm looking through I stop,
the first time I hung out with Liza;She said,
"What are you filming?"
"Nothing really I just like to record cool things." I said.
"Is that why you're filming me?" She said.
"Maybe." I said back.See David! Why couldn't you just tell her sooner! It would've been way easier!
I act like a douche *correction, I am a douche and what does it do for me? Make me seem cooler? Make me look more macho?
When I'm with Liza, I don't know how to explain it but it just feels different.
I need to get her off my mind.I change into a pair of Nike shorts, a
t-shirt, I put on my running shoes and run out the door.
As I'm running I feel calm. I clear my mind and just run.
I guess running works, I have so something to do so I don't think about anything.
I can feel my heart beating.
My breathing is steady.
My legs and arms are moving forwards and back and I'm feeling replenished.I run for while and run into a neighborhood I recognize but don't know exactly where it is.
I look around and stop running.
I've seen all these houses before but can't remember how or why.
I turn around to the house behind me and it all comes back.This is Liza's neighborhood.
How could I have done this?!
I grunt in frustration,
but I'm still curious as where she went and how she's doing.
I move a little closer to the house and try to look in but i stop myself. Why do i care? Seriously seems like she doesn't so why should I? I should stop getting mad at her, its my fault. seems like every time its my fault.ugh I need to stop, stop everything.
stop showing that i like her. stop thinking, mostly about her.
wow, she, her, Liza. i should stop saying those words.
i never thought that you could get mad at your own self, but i guess you can you really can, a lot. Why do i do this, why do i let people get close to me ? it always turns to shit, so why do i try? I try to say me and Liza are just friends, but its just so hard.
I want her to know but she can't.
Liza, i don't want to be just friends.
i would like to apologize for the lack of activity, im really sorry! i've been really busy but im going to try my best to update as much as i can. ;)
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david + liza ; just friends
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