Ruhi's confusion dwelling in her mind.
(Ruhi's point of view)
Another peculiar day of my college ends.
I was not able to understand what's happening in my life.
"Am i in love with a person whom i must hate?
Nah...it is not like that..I hope it hasn't to be like this. It is just a mere mirage..nothing else..Really! Nothing else? Am i sure?
To make me feel like this , was a process of hard weathering which he just did in few days.
I am crossing my integrity. Is this love?
I must talk 'bout this with someone or I should keep this within.
Ehh...! I am so confused. Sharing this even with Ruchika will make me foolish in her eyes.
And she is the only friend i have got.
So i must keep it within , and that's final." This was the 'filthiest' conversation of mine with myself.
I controlled my mind. Instead of over thinking, i decided to work on project. It was the first assignment i received in college and i was not in a state of mind to spoil this because of my imaginations. There were 5 books in my bag. I needed to select the most appropriate pictures, diagrams and datas from the pages marked by Rahim. I read 2 books, wrote few notes in a separate notebook and marked important pages. At some points, I realised why Rahim was topper. The grip he had around the depth of topics was commendable. The choice of books in between hundreds of books from Library, selection of important pictures and paragraphs made me stunned. I imagined what i would have done if he wasn't my partner. I started seeking more interest in the project.
I grabbed the third book from my bag. All of my interest turned blue seeing the cover of book. It wasn't some subject related book but Rahim's personal diary. I was shocked. How that diary freak misunderstood it with Physics books and handed over to me? Or was that intentional? He might not have courage to share his feelings and thus he gave me his diary secretly. But he was so tempestuous when i just asked him about his diary, i couldn't even think it to be willful act.
I should call him on his landline to inform him about the diary. It was the first thought in my mind. But oh shit! I didn't had his number. I should have asked it earlier. I regretted.
Diary was in front of me. Solutions of all the questions related to Rahim which were disturbing me were in front of me. All the reasons behind his being a mystery man was in front of me. But my ethical values didn't allow me to open the diary. His angry face was in front of me. But at the same time i couldn't ignore his generosity, his isolated behavior and calls of my core, my heart. Might be, after knowing his story, in any way i could help him. Coincidences do not happen in real life. This was a siganl of God. Being a 1990's girl, i used to believe in universe signals.
My inner voice tempted and finally i turned the cover of book.
'Welcome to Rahim's world - Year 1990"
These were the words written in the middle of first page. My hands shivered. I turned the next page........
