8th August , 1990
Today...eh! I didn't want to see this type of day in my life again . The worst day of my college life.
First of all, illiterate people get into authority and then fuck all the system.
They first join their hands in front of us and pledge to serve them, then at a very sudden moment they get their aim and they show their actual face.
Today , 3 ass-holes did something very disruptive to me. They dug me from deep inside and dragged me to a place where i became a puppet of their hands. Putting me in a very pathetic situation by harming my inner peace in an illegitimate manner.
They left notches on my self-esteem. They did revenge which was full of fun for them. They undressed my shyness. They were laughing , but my soul was crying. Those minutes passed like seconds for them , but it took years here.
They ragged me immaculately , crashed my pride deliberately and destroyed my symphony.
I would have protested in an violent manner but i refused. I didn't want to get involve in such things , they are like this because they might lack responsibilities but my shoulders are disposed. Hence i dont wanna mess up my future college life.
Thanks to that nightingale , albatross flew away.
Thanks to that breeze , hot air blew away.
She came like angle and behaved like knight.
This was the first time , her presence pinched me so tight , that i could feel an inclination.
That was feeling i can't explain in these frozen words..
"But wait..she knew them?
Was all that intentional , they all might be laughing at my position , I hadn't expected this sort of behaviour from a topper after me. But still I can't believe this , Ruhi was a bit talkative but she can't do something like this " my mind is inquisitive but heart is clear.
She saved me . Ruhi saved me but my position was very much Halloween.
I mean a lean corpse without stripes. My brown skin and big hairs on chest made me more embarrassing..
But i hope my integrity might had worked ,
My shyness might had screwed my respect in her eyes.
As those moron leave . Ruhi and her friend provided me free space to improve my situation. Hence I did that as soon as possible. Then I sat on first chair , opened physics book and got lost in that.
Suddenly , Ruhi disturbed me , when i came to know that now i am surrounded by a thick gathering. She took a click and pushed me out of technology .
She wanna seek an apology and she has to even, until she told me that Rohan , one of those creep , was her family friend. He must learn many things from her . He must procure her sensibility , maturity , intelligence and simplicity.
I wanna tell her that she's not the guilty .
I wanna tell her that she's not responsible.
I wanna tell her that she's cute.
I wanna tell her that she's awesome
But all i told her is 'ok'.
My inner core is so nerdy that there's always a pressure and nervousness deep inside which negotiates my feelings.
Now i get her hallucinations, now i feel her touch when we shook our hands, god please save me from this strange thing.
