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Letter#16: From Alex to Sister Margaret

My sweetest guide and teacher,

All praises to thy lord! I hope that by the grace and mercy of God you and Father Samuel are fine and good in your health. I hope everyone else at the orphanage is fine too.

Sister, I have moved to Germany because my granny wanted me there with here. She passed away a few days after I came here. But I'm glad that she had me in her last moments. Now I live here alone. It was so hard for me to leave London and the house. Everyone was so happy in the house until I went away.

Bella or Alice might have told you about my illness and the reason for me to leave London. The doctors had estimated a total of six months or a year as the maximum time for me to survive with the artificial valves. But here I am, it has been two years since I left London. 

Sister, I was desperate. I had to make a decision between Ivan's happiness and mine. He had always loved me dearly with all his heart. I didn't want him to see me die in front of his eyes. Had I known I was to live long, I would have never left him. Ivan hates me now. You always taught us to make people happy no matter whatever are the circumstances. It was a difficult decision so I chose his happiness over mine. It would hurt him terribly for some time but he will get used to of it. He will never understand what I go through. He can never.

Once he had told me that he can do anything for me. So, I asked him to promise me that he will marry Sam. He did what he promised me and he's happy with his life and family. I can never forget the moments we spent together all those years.

Anyway, I wanted to thank you for the love and support that you and father Samuel always showered me with. 

Pay my regards and respects to Father Samuel. Take care of yourself.  May God bless you.

                                                                                                                                               Alexandra