The Long and Winding Journey ( a Hollywood heights fanfic)

ch.22

Two words that's all. Just two words is all I have to say I do. I do is simple to say if you think about it. Do you like cookies? I do. Do you like beaches? I do. Do you love Eddie? I do. Will you promise to love him, and cherish him all the days of your life? I do. Then why am I scared out of my mind to say two words. I was confident I was ready.

All day I was ready. Well I was nervous, but I wanted this. Then when I turned the corner at the beach, and saw Eddie standing there at the alter, and how beautiful it was. it took me everything not to come running down the isle. I was more than ready. I was about to marry the man tat I loved more than anything, and I was sure.

Until the judge said vows, I kept saying all I have to say is I do. Then he said Eddie had writen his own vows. What? When I didn't have time to right vows, I have been trying to remember how to say I do all day. I wasn't ready for this I forgot all about the vow part, about promising your partner everything.

Most vows were simple, and I knew Eddie's would be. But, all I kept hearing in my head was do you promise to cook him supper every night, do you promise to have kids, do you promise to be a good wife. Wife…wife I was about to be someone's wife. I think I may faint. I'm not ready to have kids. I can't do this. I can't do this. Can I do this?

Things couldn't have gone any better. We were getting married, I was going to spend the rest of my life next to Loren. Until five minutes ago when it seems like someone pulled the plug on her life support.

I was confident more confident in this then anything in my whole life. I have wanted this since the moment I laid eyes in her. Honestly, I have wanted this since I first saw her lyrics on twitter. I just don't understand why she isn't confident. Do I want this more than she does. I don't want her to marry me just to make me happy. I would be happy the rest of my life, but she wouldn't. Loren is it for me, there will be no one else.

But, I am the first serious relationship she has. She hasn't been with other guys so maybe there is another guy out there or her. No that can't happen, I would have to be dead for her to be with someone else. I don't think I could watch her kiss another guy. When I saw Cam put his arm around her tonight I wanted to drown him in the ocean. I mean we were promise to each other, and this is really the same thing.

The only difference is in order to break up, she would have to divorce me. I know she is ready. I think she is ready. I Pray to God she is ready.

Eddie was really worried that she might faint, so he gently put his arms around her waist, and pulled her to him.

Eddie: softly, "Babe are you okay,"

Loren: "I….I…I…"

This was killing him, but he had to give her a way out. Yes he would be crushed to a million pieces, but if she wasn't ready then this wasn't right. He was going to end it and just take her back to the bungalow.

Eddie: "Loren babe it's okay we're not gonna do this….as much as I want you to marry me…I see that your'e just not ready..you are more important right now…its okay."

Loren was shocked, not by the I Do. But by the way he was going to wait until he thought she was ready. He wanted this so bad, but he would cancel everything, all his work just to make her okay. It was like a light switch went off. I wouldn't just have to cook for him, he would cook for me also. Our kids would be amazing because he would be there father. I would be his wife, but he would be my husband. My husband, she loved the sound of that.