This won't hurt you, that much 😅
Richard", she struggled to say.
"Dei, look at me. You have to let go of your past. Hindi na 'to tungkol sa akin o sa panliligaw ko, tungkol na 'to sa'yo . Hindi lahat mawawala Dei, pero gagaan", he assured her, wiping her tears away.
She gulped then looked on his eyes.
"2 years.. 2 years ago I was about to get married to someone I really love", she started and saw shock on his eyes.
"I'm with you, Dei"
"I was walking down the aisle then he ran away. Habang naglalakad ako papunta sa kanya, tumakbo siya palayo sa akin", then she remembered everything. All those pity eyes looking at her, the heavy rains when she tried to follow him.
"Sinundan ko siya, kasi baka nabigla lang siya, wedding jitter, baka kinabahan lang siya. Sinundan ko siya kasi ang tanga ko. Sinundan ko siya kasi mahal ko. Then, as I was busy following him, I was hit by a truck that caused me this", she said looking on her legs.
"Then it got worse, because I also lost our baby on that accident", she burst out crying.
"Deiiii... ", he said wiping her tears, reaching her for a hug.
"No. That doesn't end there. While kuya rushed me to the hospital, my parents followed and they got hit by another car. They died that day too", she keeps on sobbing as she remember and feel every inch of pain.
"At si kuya? He sacrificed his life for me. He chose me over his long time girlfriend and soon to be wife. He chose to stay with me", he whispered.
"Dei... I'm sorry"
"No Richard, that's the last thing I want to hear from you. I am sorry I can't let you love me"
"Dei, I know it's hard. I wish I was there. But I wasn't. Pero Dei, ngayon andito na ako", he searched for her eyes then reached for her hands.
"Richard, I told you my story for you to understand that we're not for each other. I don't want to be a burden to you, like what I am to my family"
"No Dei you are no-"
"Richard, listen okay? Baka you're just confused. Kakakilala lang natin, paano kung dumating 'yong araw na maisip mo na hindi mo pala ako mahal? Paano ku-"
"Dei, I am not him", he said then held her face making her look on his eyes.
"I know", she nodded.
"You deserve better, and that is not me", she added distancing herself from him.
"Dei, you are-"
"Stop, this is for your own good. Richard hindi mo ba nakikita? I can't walk. Magiging alagain mo lang ako and.. all the things that I've been through.. Richard, I am broken, I am damaged"
"Then I'll fix you"
"I can't be fix"
"I can, Dei. If you just let me. Isa lang Dei. Isang beses lang", he pleaded.
"I'm sorry, pero mas maiging wag na tayong pumasok sa isang sitwasiyon na masasaktan lang tayo pareho"
She saw a tear roll down his face.
"Sana man lang sinubukan mo muna. Ang daya mo. Hindi pa nga tayo nagsisimula, tinapos mo na agad", he whispered wiping his own tears, he stood up then started to walk out, when he was on her doorsteps. He stop.
"I won't give you up that easy, Dei. I won't give you up kasi ang tanga ko. I won't give you up kasi mahal kita", he said then left.
