Ice Eyes, Ice Heart (boyxboy) [UNDER CONSTRUCTION]

Chapter #20 Liar

NICK   ˇ︿ˇ

     The last thing I remember was holding my weeping mother in my arms wishing I were dead. The light from my window forced me to open my eyes, or it might’ve been the sound of my moms’ new “boyfriend” yelling for no goddamn reason. I walked downstairs to find my new pain in the ass sitting on my couch sipping away on his booze. I made myself a glass of water and sat next to him, watching football. I sat there keeping in my emotions. The urge to take him down for hitting my mom grew every second that he was in my presence. His yells echoed through the quiet house; burning my ears. He was disturbing my peace. Disturbing my mind. Suddenly the football team he was rooting for scored a touchdown and he stood up and cheered. He turned around and looked at me, disgustfully.      
     
   “Why the hell aren’t you pumped!? C’mon son! THEY SCORED!” I didn’t make eye contact with him because I know if I did I wouldn’t be able to hold myself back. I was doing this for my mom. I’ll stay out of the way. I won’t pick a fight. “Hey! You hear me? What, you don’t like the game?” I shook my head, trying to talk as little as possible. “Are ya a faggot or something! Lemme tell ya, them homosexuals, it ain’t right! It ain’t natural! God Damn those queers, they make me sick!” I felt like I had something inside of me and it was about to explode. I felt full and empty at the same time. He pushed me shoulders and yelled in my face, “Hey! You aren’t a fag are ya? Answer me ya damn brat!”  I turned to face another way and he grabbed my head and yelled, “Hey! You hear me!?” I jerked away and he pushed me again. Trying to get away I kneed him where it counts and ran out of the house and slammed the door. He fell to the ground clutching himself. I took a breath as I dampened my cheeks. Looking up I met his eyes. Ice blue eyes. I heard the old drunk get up and I took off running down the street. Lucas’ footsteps trotting after me I felt even emptier. He yelled after me,     

    “Nick! Why are you running?” That sentence shocked me and I dared to look back him. He looked so stupid when he ran. His bangs flying off of his forehead as he picked up speed. I chuckled to myself as more tears fell. I asked him this instead of answering his stupid question,      
   
   “Why are you following me?!”  I was hoping to get a legit answer but at the same time I wanted him to leave me alone.     

    “I don’t kn-“ here it comes… again and again. Taking my heart and crushing it in your hands, “I care about you! I was worried… I wanted to make sure you were OK!” I tripped over Lucas’ words and I was pushed to the ground by his idiotic kindness. Liar. Why do you have to do this to me? I’m giving up… why do you make it so hard? Just get out of my life already… or maybe I should just get out of my own life. Lucas ran over with a hand to help me up. I don’t need your pity. I slapped his hand away and looked him in the eyes and said something that I wished that wasn’t true,      
  
     “You don’t! Nobody cares about me!” The poor boy looked almost hurt. It broke my heart to run away from that pitiful face. But I ran. I dove into the woods on the perimeter of the town and hid quickly behind an old oak tree. Lucas stopped in front of it. I held my mouth closed so the sobs wouldn’t escape. I cried as he proclaimed,       
 
  “Nick! That’s not true! I do! I do care! Maybe not in the way that you want me to but… just… be ok…ok?” stop! Just stop! Don’t… say it so nicely. Scream it in my face! Tell me that you don’t love me. Just like everyone else. I heard something hit the tree and it startled me and I let out a weep. I cursed under my breath for making a sound. Lucas really did it when he said, “I’m sorry! If this is my fault, I’m sorry Nick!” it’s… not your fault. Everything… it’s because of me. As I heard his steps fade away I lay my head next to that big oak tree. Lucas was the only one who ever gave me a chance. Nobody likes me in school… but Lucas. But now, even he’s gone. Everything I have is gone. All I have left are lies

☆poor Nick :(☆