Sorry if it took me so long before I could re-write this chapter all over again. I was so disappointed when I learned that I lost my only copy, and didn’t have the drive to write another one UNTIL NOW.
I came home from work with the passion to write again. My mobile internet won’t work and I have nothing to do but this. although, later I will be having a break, to do some very important matters. Hindi lang naman ito ang buhay ko, kaya please understand. Hehe!
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CHAPTER 11
CASSEY’S POV:
Masama ang loob ko kay Andrei because I knew he can’t trust me enough. Paano niya naisip na kaya ko siyang lokohin? Wala akong ibang minahal bukod sa kanya simula nung makilala ko siya. Hindi man lang nga ako nagka-crush kahit kanino, buong buhay ko siya lang. Pero sa isang pagkakataon lang, ayaw na niya akong pakinggan. Worst comes to worst, he even think I’m poofing in his head! How dare he!
But even if that’s the case, I still don’t understand myself why I still love him. I knew in my heart I shouldn’t love someone who doesn’t trust me back. I trusted him my heart when I accepted him in my life, and I think I failed in making him trust me, too.
Siguro nga masyado kaming nagmadali, dapat siguro dumaan muna kami dun sa courting stage. Sana mas kinilala muna namin ang isa’t isa para nalaman namin kung compatible ba talaga kami for each other. I hate that I have to feel this way right now, yung bang nire-regret mo naging kayo. Sana hindi na lang kasi mas okay noong hindi pa kayo.
Honestly, I’m thinking of breaking up with him completely. Ayoko ng ganito, yung walang tiwala sa’kin yung ka-relasyon ko. Masyado lang mabigat sa loob knowing what he think of me. I can’t accept that. Mas okay kung friends na lang muna. No complications.
Not that I don’t love him anymore. Honestly, this is the hardest thing to do for me at the moment. I love him with all my heart, pero palagi na lang kaming nag-aaway. I don’t know if I still can handle it anymore.
ANDREI’s POV:
I know I’ve hurt her feelings by not trusting her. I feel so stupid for doing that. I promised that I won’t hurt her ever, and now I just did. I really suck!!! I wish she’d still give me a chance. I know she’s completely mad, and I don’t know what to do to make her forgive me. I’m not confident that she’ll forgive me easily, I know her for being hard-headed. And I understand that. I deserved to be punished! I hate myself for being so jealous, I just can’t help it. I love her so much.
I know I’m acting like a teenager with the jealousy and all. That was weird when I should be the one taking care of this relationship. She’s years younger than I, and I’m acting otherwise. God help me, I can’t afford to lose her. She’s my everything.
I knocked in her door, and tried to open the door knob and found it open. I went inside and found her sitting on her head and crying. Seeing her like that broke my heart for I know I caused her those tears. I hate myself even more for not being able to protect her from hurting.
I sat beside her and held her hand. She didn’t look at me, but let me hold it. I went near her, and hugged her. She’s still crying, mas lalo pang lumakas dahil sa pagyakap ko.
