All my love

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Conor's POV

Two days.

Two whole days and nothing.

Not one call, not one text absolutely nothing and I hate it So goddamn much. I feel so lost without her.

I need her.

I need at least one text, one call everyday, like it's my own fuel to keep me going. And I haven't had that. Nothing other than my fans blowing up my phone with notifications but that's normal. Right now all I want is Mia to send one text, or even call. God I would kill to hear her soft toned voice.

Is it my fault?

Am I in the wrong, and not Hilary.

Is it my fault for bringing Mia into my life? Should I have not broken up with Hilary? Should I have just never met either of them and maybe my life would be a lot simpler.

But, by now I'm used to the anger and pain Hilary brings me when she shows up at my door. It's become a part of my life and if it stopped....I don't think it would feel right.

And with Mia. She's such a huge part of my life now I can't picture not having  her with me, and I dont want to. I love having her in my life, too call when I want, to text her when I'm bored anything and she's there for me.

We don't even know each other that well. And yet I love her? I think I do. But what if I'm in love with the feelings she gives me, and not her.

No it can't be. I told her I loved her and she told me. I love her. I do. I do.

I lent the side of my shoulder against the wall of the studio door waiting for her to turn around. It's been too long without contact and I couldn't take any longer without her

"When we were honeymoon avenue baby" she quietly sang as she put all her stuff into her handbag.

"Impressive. Have you ever thought of being a singer" I ask folding my arms over my chest. Watching her body quickly turn around from fright

"You scared me" she said pulling her bag onto her shoulder "and no, it's not something I've ever thought about" she said copying my actions by putting her arms across her chest. Not taring away the eye contact.

"You sound good" I say trying to hold back the huge smile that I get everytimg I see her, because that's not what I want yet.

"Well.....Thanks" she said now looking down at her feet.

"Mia"

"Yeah" she mumbled looking up at me. Noticing she had a few tears slowly running down her cheeks, I took it Within myself to take steps towards her to Cup her face in my hands to wipe away those stray tears

"I'm sorry" I whisper "for everything I've ever caused you. It's just I want you around, Hell I need you around. But I know I'm causing you pain, I know I'm hurting you more and more. So that being said I know you're probably angry at me, but if you want to leave it all, leave me, leave Hilary and everything we've shared because of how much anger, hurt and pain this whole thing has caused. I understand because I honestly don't want you to hurt because of-" I let it all, everything I wanted her to know. I couldn't live with myself knowing I was causing her pain. But I couldn't get everything out because she eventually spoke up

"Conor, I'm not mad okay. I'm honestly not, i have nothing to be mad about" she said gently pulling my hands away from her face to our sides to lock our hands together "I am hurt, and I am broken but all that was long before you came along. If I wasn't hurt, if I wasn't broken I wouldn't be.....me. I just" she paused before sighing tears welling up in her eyes "I love you,I really do and I know we don't know each other and all but I honestly couldn't give a flying fuck about that. It's just I can't keep getting hurt or angry with myself because of her. Her who seems to show up 24/7 and it's not good for either of us" what does she mean? She wants to leave everything behind? She wants to stay in my life? I don't know but I'm ready to find out.