All my love

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Conor's POV

"Hilary needs to come back into you're life" I actually felt my heart drop down to the pit my stomach. Did he really just say those words. Did they really just come out of his mouth.It took me a couple of seconds as my mind tried to take in the information that has just been passed to me

"What? Why?" I am completely taken back. Hilary. They need Hilary back into my life? Well to be honest she never left it. She always kept coming back but still that's irrelevant right now.

"we need something to drag people's attention to you other than you're music. And bringing a girl into the picture will make fans go crazy, and you'll get talked about everywhere" Aaron said lacing his fingers together on his lap, getting more comfortable in his chair.

"Yeah, I'll get talked about all right. And what will be said won't be good. Aaron mate, you know how badly she treated my fans. We can't go back to that" I say trying to be stern with him as possible. But he is my manager and my career is in his hands. And not to mention he could drop me from the label like that.

"Conor trust me on this, we just need to let the paparazzi see you and Hilary together to make people start talking about it and then bang you're the talk of the town. It's a great idea believe me.people will want answers and won't stop till they get them" I don't understand why or who's idea this was but whoever came up with it is a complete and utter moron. I sighed as my fingers dragged through my hair thinking about what to say next.

"And you're point is" I ask leaning back in my chair more folding my arms over my chest as I stared at Aaron intensely waiting for some sense to come out of him

"The point of it all, is that people will be going crazy that 'Conor Maynard' is with a girl. Think of the news lines, the popularity by bringing a girl into the picture" he stated looking between me and my best friend Anth who has been quiet this whole time, just watching it all unfold in front of him.

"By what? Bringing a fucking psycho path back into the frame? I don't think so! The only headlines we'll get out of this will be something along the lines of Conor Maynard gone back to his mental messed up ex, who bullied his fans and treated him like complete and utter shit" i snap, feeling myself getting more frustrated the more time went on "the fans hated her and so do I, nothing good is going to come out of this other than a whole load of hate"

"Maybe Aaron's right dude,it'll bring more attention to you. And whether it's good or bad it's something" finally Anth decided to speak. But what he did say didn't help my case at all, but in fact my managers stupid idea

"But we already have enough attention, haven't you seen all the hype about the new music video coming out next week? People are going crazy about it" now I'm coming up with any excuse to not go forward with Aaron's plan. It's completely ridiculous and if he thinks I'm going through with it he has another thing coming

"Okay that may be, but what about after that music video is released , a couple weeks later it'll be forgotten about. We need something that will be talked about for ages and bringing you're ex back into the picture will do that"

"But-" I was about to give my point across but Aaron wouldn't let me. Blocking of any good idea I had

"No buts Conor, we're going through with this end of. You and Hilary will meet tomorrow outside Hyde park I will arrange for the paparazzi to be there by half three. Be there" he said sternly pushing himself up of the chair and leaving the room not another word was said until the stupid door shut

"Cheers for the support" I turn to my best mate who had just sat listening to everything that was going on. Nothing helpful coming out of his mouth at all other than to help Aaron which is not what I wanted

"Look maybe Aaron's right. We can just see how this turns out" Anth said standing up "see you later man" he fist bumped my knuckles before leaving the room, leaving me in the silent studio . My thoughts clouding up in my mind

"Fuck" I sigh running my hands over my face. This is another example of people not actually considering how I feel. It's all about work, money and popularity.

None of it, is about how Conor Maynard feels. Because nobody cares about that. All people want from me is my music end of. I signed up to become a singer not a liar to the media

I guess that's how the business works though. It's never actually about the pop star or how they feel. It's about how popular the pop star is Other wise there just irrelevant and get dropped instantly. It's cruel but it's how it works

All I want is just for somebody to ask how I feel for once. And not bring popularity into it all. Just what I want to do. And how I want to carry out my career.

But nope. Nobody cares. They only care when my music gets released. That's all they want me for. My music.

claiming they love me.Please. They love my music, they love who the media make me out to be

They don't love Conor Maynard.

They don't know Conor Maynard because nobody gives him a chance. nobody wants to know what goes in Conor's mind. Heck nobody cares enough to ask how Conor Maynard is feeling

Well I'll tell you. The real Conor Maynard hasn't slept for days,not by choice. But instead to make other people happy. Making himself ill by not sleeping just for the benefit for someone else. The real Conor Maynard is so insecure on the inside but chooses to smile to cover it up. The real Conor Maynard isn't as happy and cheerful in fact, inside he's depressed, he's alone and he's scared

Scared in case nothing goes to plan. Scared for the people he loves, scared for the amount of times he's thought it's all to much to carry on with.

But nobody cares, nobody takes a double look to see if the tears running down Conor Maynard's face are real or not. Nobody has the time to ask how Conor Maynard's day has been or how he's feeling today.

No because nobody cares. Nobody wants to care

But if only they knew what goes on in Conor Maynard's mind. Then maybe they would start to care.