I have these words
That I can't seem to say
But I can write themThe thing is though
That I'm afraid toI'm afraid that they'll think I'm weak
That I'm overreacting
But they don't have to listen to the constant yelling
And see the constant state of an unstable motherThey all live their
Happy little livesBut me
I sit here
Forced to love everybody else
When there's no love for meI sit here
Forced to watch my family fall to pieces
And I can't do anythingBut I still have to smile
Because if I don't
I'm called a pessimistBut you know what?
Maybe I just need to frown
Maybe I just need to cry and be weak and frail
Only for a little while
So I don't breakBut I can't
Because I have to be strong
For my siblings
And for everybody elseI sit here
Listening to the words that only I can hear
The words that I'm to afraid to share
