Shizuka is enamored when Kakashi saves her life. After being placed on his team, they grow ever closer. Kakashi doesn't know what is happening to him as he falls deeper and deeper to this nameless feeling he doesn't understand. But threats happen an...
I woke with a start, rushing to her side as she cries out in her sleep. I narrowly avoid a kunai to the face as I duck, seeing the glint. Her eyes snap open as I grab her wrist, eyes haunted and afraid. Her arms go around herself as she slowly comes out of her nightmare. I didn't touch her, just offer her silent comfort knowing that this is what she needs. Tears were in her eyes as she sorts through what was and wasn't real.
After a few minutes, I get her a drink of water and return ordering her to drink. She doesn't protest and drinks the whole thing. It must be about noon right now, far later than I am usually awake, but this wasn't a usual circumstance. "You can go back to bed if you want. I will be here. You're safe, Shizuka." I tell her comfortingly. No woman should ever have to go through what she just had. But in this world, there were many ninja scum and one couldn't eradicate all of them no matter how hard they tried. Shizuka shakes her head at the proposal of more sleep.
"I have been plagued by too many nightmares. I couldn't fall asleep again if I tried," She tells me in a defeated tone. I feel badly as I know what she means. I have many nightmares, quite often too. "Is my mother okay?" She asks suddenly as she looks at me. I nod to her and smile. "I let her know when I got back that you would be staying with me as a safety measure," I tell her as I reach out and ruffle her already messy bed head. She lightly punches me in the arm, looking more like herself and a little less like a hallowed, haunted shell. It made my heart constrict immeasurably.
She looked so vulnerable, not like a ninja at all in this moment. I felt horrible for not being able to stop them from taking her the first time. But I would never let anyone hurt her ever again. I suspected I knew what this feeling was, but I wasn't quite ready for it yet. Either way, I was willing to kill anyone who ever stood in her way again. Anyone who hurt her was going to be as good as dead.
He had carried me back to his place, slept on the couch of his own apartment even. Why was he doing all of this for me? I didn't understand why or what happened to possess him to be this kind with me. We hadn't met all that long ago. But apparently with Kakashi, that doesn't matter. A comrade is still a comrade. I shake my head, hoping to clear my thoughts. One thought persists in my mind as I felt the significance of that question. I opened my mouth to ask it, but instead what was audible was my stomach growling. Kakashi laughs softly and stands up. "Looks like we are both hungry. Let me make lunch," he says as he exits the room.
I stand to follow him, but immediately realize I am only wearing his shirt. A blush appears on my face as I realize exactly how much of me he had seen last night. I see a few bags beside the bed and hurry to throw on my clothes, wanting to feel a little more normal. By the time he returns, my hair is brushed out and tied back and I am dressed for the day. I turn and smile at him. "You don't have to do this, you know," I tell him as he hands me my food.
He waves one hand around and smiles as he removes his mask to eat. "It's fine. I am doing it because I want to. Besides, the enemy knows where you live now. I want to see them try to break into my home without me noticing," He says confidently. I smile a little to myself. He was intending to protect me then. I dig into the food he brought and nearly choke. "How do you keep making food this good?" I demand to know in between bites. He gives a satisfied grin. "That my dear, that's a secret," he tells me. I begin to blush and immediately look down to hide it. My heart beats erratically in my chest.
Kakashi was not good for my heart. Despite that, it seems that my traitorous heart wasn't going to listen. "I am such a stupid, stupid virgin," I mumble quietly, earning a weird look from Kakashi. I nearly choke on my lunch. 'Oh god, did I just say that out loud?' I think to myself. Kakashi laughs a little. "Don't worry, I am not a demon out to steal your virtue," He tells me. I snort, making food come out of my nose, instantly causing it to burn.
Kakashi gives me a look of concern, completely twisting until he can't cold back the laughter. Still coughing, I down the glass of water at my side. "Kakashi, you just about killed me," I cough as his hysterical laughter continues. Tears leak from his eyes, his face almost the same color as a tomato. "Huh, I didn't think it was possible, but I think I broke Kakashi," I giggle as the burning subsides. This earns me even more laughter and he falls out of his chair, rolling on the floor. I begin to laugh as well until we turn into a laughing, crying puddle on the floor together.
As the laughter subsides, I realize his face is mere centimeters from mine. His eyes which had been closed open to stare into mine. I let out a small gasp as his face grows nearer to mine.
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He was too close and I closed my eyes, lips ever so slightly parted. The kiss that he gave started out sweet and innocent but grew rapidly more possessive with every stroke of his tongue. I was burning, melting onto the floor. My body came alive with every second, my heart beating so fast I felt as if I could float. One of my hands clutched his shirt, the other his hair pulling him even closer to me. A soft moan escapes his lips, driving me nearly mad with desire. The pace at which he was nearly devouring me was startling and intriguing at the same time. I wasn't sure what I wanted, but this slice of heaven felt so right. I felt like... Like I belonged here. A tiny tear slips down my cheek at the severity of my emotions.
Before I realize what's happening, he pulls back and looks sheepishly at me. A massive blush lights my face, causing me to feel off kilter. "I'm sorry, I may have went too far," He apologizes to me. I look at him in disbelief. "Kakashi, you can't just kiss someone like you are starving and then apologize. If I didn't want it I would have said no," I say in exasperation. Kakashi looks down with a slight frown on his face. "I took advantage of you while you were vulnerable," He grumbles almost to himself.
I give an exasperated sigh. "And I didn't WANT to or TRY to stop you," I empathize as I put a finger to his lips, moving closer to him. He gives me a startled look and looks back down in self shame. "But... it made you cry," he whispers. Realization dawns on me. "Kakashi... Did you know that there is a such thing as happy tears? Because there are three different types. Happy, sad and angry. I didn't cry because I was upset. I wouldn't have let you kiss me if I was angry. So take that however you want," I grumble as I get up off of the floor.
Kakashi looks at me thoughtfully as he gets up and continues eating his now luke-warm lunch. I polish off the last of my food and give him a big grin. "I will make a deal with you, Kakashi," I tell him with determination. He raises his head from his plate, looking me in the eyes. "And what would that be?" He asks with curiosity. My grin widens. "Next time, I will start things first, and you won't need to worry about me not wanting it. Because I always know when I want something," I tell him. Kakashi looks at me, shocked speechless for a moment. He quickly recovers before nodding in agreement.
"Fine. You have a deal. But there is no guarantee that I will be able to fully restrain myself next time," He tells me with complete honesty. A knowing look must have shown on his face and I resume smiling brightly to push the thought away. "I know you wouldn't hurt me. Don't worry, if it ever comes to that, I will already have been okay with that. I can promise you that. Next time I will show you my real determination. I don't spook so easily," I tell him. He nods once. "I guess I will wait for that to happen, then" He tells me. I give him a smile and collect plates, going to wash them.
Kakashi's hand on my shoulder stops me and I look back at him. "I will do them. You get ready. We will be going out for a bit," He tells me. I nod and bite my lower lip. "Okay," I say in a small voice. A smile graces his face. "Relax, Shizuka. Whatever happens, we will overcome it. I will protect you with my life," He tells me earnestly. It makes my heart feel funny once again. He would protect me with his life? This feeling... Tears slipped silently as I turned away from him. I recognized it at last. I was... I was in love with Kakashi. And he was going to protect me.
