Overthinking—
I woke up from a nightmare a few minutes ago...
All of these 'what-ifs' are haunting me.
What if there's somebody better?
There's always somebody better...
What if you leave?
Everybody always does.
What if I mess up?
It wouldn't surprise me, I'm just a fuck up.
I can't lose you,
And you can't leave.
I can't handle it—
You're in way too deep.
You're all I've ever needed,
And I'm not gonna lose that.
You're my best friend—
And you're the love of my life.
Worries may cross my mind,
But I know we'll get through it all.
The thing that confuses me is that I trust you with everything.
I know you wouldn't do anything to hurt me.
It's just that so many people have said the same thing.
I know you're different-- but the fear is still there.
Those thoughts won't matter each time you prove your love.
Like always, I know you love me.
Those thoughts are just my past trying to haunt me.
I WISH THEY'D STOP.
Those thoughts are there because I've been hurt so many times before.
Nobody can hurt me now. Not now— not anymore.
YOU ARE READING
I'm Not Okay. I'm Sorry.
Poetrythis is just an outlet for some of my poetry and poetic thoughts. my mindsets and my perspective. i can tell you now that it won't all rhyme. don't expect perfection. enjoy, i guess. xx 💕
