isay's innocent love

chapter 12: my kind of ending :)

“Kuya! How dare you! I hate you!”, maluha luhang salubong ni Dianne sa kuya niya.

“Ano bang problema mo diyan Dianne at ni hindi ka man lang kumakatok?”, gulat na tanong ni David sa kapatid. Ibinaba niya ang ballpen. Kani kanina lang kasi ay may pinipirmahan siyang mga papeles.

Umirit si Diane sa sobrang inis. “oh god kuya!!! Hindi mo pa alam?!!! Binuntis mo si Alyssa!!!”, galit na galit si diane. Kinuha niya ang unan sa kama ng kapatid at pinaghahampas si David.

“ano bang pinagsasasabi mo diyang bata ka?”, tanong ni David habang pilit na umiilag sa hampas nito. Mukhang kailangan na niyang tumawag sa mental hospital at naghihisterya na ang kapatid niya.

“nagtatanong ka pa!!! Noong graduation day ni ate! Aha! Sa kanya ka siguro pumunta noong gabing iyon no?? ginamit mo lang siya kuya!!! At ngayong buntis na siya hindi ka man lang nagpaparamdam sa kanya.”, hindi pa rin binababaan ni Diane ang boses niya. Halos umusok na nga siguro ang ilong nito sag alit.

“Sinabi sa iyo ni Alyssa na ako ang ama?”, panlilinaw niya. His world is falling into even more pieces. His world shattered into pieces when Alyssa broke up with him. Now, mas nadurog pa ito nang malamang buntis ang dalaga. Naalala niya kung asan siya noong gabi ng graduation ni Alyssa. Nilulunod niya ang sarili sa alak. Habang si Alyssa pala ay nasa yakap ng Mark na iyon.

“aba! At sino pa ba??!!! Anong akala mo kay ate? May ibang lalake? Kuya you are so irresponsible! And I thought iba ka na. You disappointed me!! I hate you!!!” sigaw ni Diane and then marched out from his room. Galit na ibinagsak pa nito ang pinto.

Nanghihinang napaupo si David sa kanyang higaan. Sinklay niya ang buhok niya gamit ang mga daliri. Hindi niya akalaing mangyayari ito. Buntis si Alyssa. And sa pagkakaintindi niya from Diane’s nervous breakdown, noong graduation ginawa ang nasa sinapupunan ngayon ni Alyssa. Marahil sa sobrang saya ni Alyssa sa pakikipagbalikan kay Mark ay nagawa nitong ibreak ang chastity pledge niya. O baka ayaw na ni Alyssa na mawala sa kanya si Mark dahil mahal na mahal niya ito kaya ibinigay na niya ang buong sarili niya. Isang bagay na hindi nabigay ng dalaga kay mark dati at hindi rin ibinigay sa kanya.

 He clutched his chest where his heart rests. It is literally aching. If he hadn’t knew himself better, he’d think he is having angina pectoris. He took the word “heartbroken” to maximum level.

            David woke up with a very bad headache. Last night were just like the other nights since he found out that Alyssa was pregnant. He wallowed in his misery and drowned himself with alcohol until he passed out. He has the worst coping mechanism ever if this was still called coping. He knows that, but he still feels like he want to take a drink. It seems that wallowing in misery is his expertise.

            Bumaba siya ng hagdan na hawak hawak ang sentido. Masakit talaga ang ulo niya. Muntik na siyang mahulog nang mabangga siya ng pababang si Diane. “hey. Look at where your walking. There are actually other people in this house too.”, mainit niyang pasaaring.

“so inconsiderate.”, he said, hawak hawak niya pa rin ang kanyang sentido.

            Marahas siyang nilingon ni Diane. “im inconsiderate?!!”, she laughed sarcastically. Punong puno ang mga mata nito ng poot. “I thought Alyssa changed you kuya. I thought you became responsible and considerate. I thought you were a gentleman. But no! You just hurt ate Alyssa. You used her!”, sigaw nito. “You were the one who was inconsiderate. You are!”, anito na dinuduro duro pa siya. Diane has been like that to him mula nang sugurin siya nito sa kwarto niya. Tila mas kinakampihan nito si Alyssa.

            “well she did changed me.”, mahinang sambit ni David sa sarili. Because of Alyssa he became very serious with his studies and his life because he badly want to impress her. She made him realize how important it is to look at life seriously and still have fun. But she also broke him. She crushed his heart into fine pieces without much effort. Now, he is this bitter alcoholic who hates life but is too cowardly to end his own.