Taylor for the Night

Part 4 Junior Year

Junior year was actually a better year then the last two years combined. Grace started high school and I got to spend lunch and choir with her everyday.

Kimmy and the girls said they had never believed any of those horrible rumors and we were all "friends" again. I believed that Kimmy was telling the truth, Kimmy knows me the best, other then my mom and Grace of course. She knew that I wouldn't do the things that they said I did. The other girls though, I don't quite believe.

I was ashamed though, because I technically took drugs. Yes, they were just dieting pills, but they defiantly weren't prescribed to me and my body was in fact addicted to them. I wish I could go back and change what I did, but I couldn't. I just had to keep it a secret so word wouldn't get spread that I was a "druggie" or "junkie" or something like that.

The best part of that year, was Josh didn't talk to me at all. Not even ONCE.

My grades improved that year and my friendships had never been better. I finally felt beautiful and I was starting to love myself for who I was.

I was accepted back to youth group again and I started making more friends at church.

The only thing that I couldn't fix, that broke my heart the most, was that I still couldn't dance. Although, I had technically recovered from being anorexic, I had lost all my muscles and my strength during that time. My dance teacher refused to renew my dance scholarship and with my mom being a single mom, couldn't afford it. It broke my heart knowing that now my dancing dream would never come true.

But instead of giving up, I started working my butt off in school so I could go to college and become a teacher. It may not be my original dream, but I believe my new dream could be just as wonderful. And the hard work paid off, for at the end of the year I finished with a 3.9 gpa and I had never felt better.