Thoughts.

I miss loving you...

I think I'm scared
Scared to admit something
The thing I can't admit to anyone, not even myself.
This thing that I refuse to let sink into my chest...
It's the fact that you were my soul mate.
I was 100% in love with you.
I would've given anything to spend the rest of my life with you.
You stole my heart, and I wanted you to have it forever.
From the moment I realized how deeply I loved you, it only got stronger and stronger.

But then something changed.
Something in you broke, and it broke us.
I don't blame you, at all.
But something went wrong and that's why we stopped working.
We were so happy... I couldn't feel anything. I was happily numb with you, my depression was like a speck of dirt when you were near me
But then we changed, and I fell out of love.
I still love you, but I'm not in love with you anymore.
And I don't want to admit it because I'm scared that if I recognize the fact that I was completely in love with you, I'll never find a love like that again.