Jiley-Our Realitionship Together-Continued

The funneral

Rileys POV:
Im in my room getting ready for the funneral. Its so hard to believe that shes gone. I smooth down my black dress and take one last look in the mirror. I then walk downstairs to the kitchen where James is leaning against the top wearing his black suit.
He looks at me.
'You look beautiful'
'I just wish it could be for a happier occasion'
He sighs and walk over to me. He places his hands on my hips.
'How are you holding up?' he asks.
'Me? Im fine. Its you Im worried about'
'Im fine'
'James your not. Your mom is dead'
'I-I know. But really, Im fine'
I look at him and place a hand on his cheek.
He closes his eyes as a tear falls down his face.
I wipe it away and wrap my arms tightly around him as he cries into my shoulders. I gently rub his back to try and sooth him.
He pulls away and looks at me. I take his hands.
'Im right here okay. Its not going to be easy today but Ill be sitting right next to you. If you dont want to do your speech Ill do it on behalf of you'
He shakes his head.
'Its fine. I can do it'
'Are you sure?'
He nods.
'Well if you feel nervous and forget your lines I have it written on paper' I say handing him a sheet with his speech on it.
'Thank you'
I lean in and kiss him.
Alfie walks in dressed up in a suit that James lent him. He has both twins dressed and in their buggy ready to go.
'Hey guys. Its time to go' he says sadly.
Even though Alfie never really knew Deboradh hes still very shocked about what happened.
'Okay. James are you ready?'
He takes a breath in and nods.
'Yeah. Lets do this'
We all leave the house to go to the funneral.
James POV:
I sit down next to my brother and everyone else in my family. Some of Rileys family has shown up too which is really sweet. Even people from her family who have never met Deboradh before are here! I stare at the coffin on the alter. The one that my mother is lying in. I take a breath in to try and stop the tears from running. Riley takes my hand. Alfie is sitting next to her trying to get the twins to stop squirming.
I smile.
'Alfie. Ill take one' I tell him.
'Okay'
He gently hands me Ashlyn. Riley takes Dylan.
The priest appears on the alter as the funneral begins.

'Can I invite her youngest son James up to make a speech please'
I stand up handing Ashyln to Alfie and slowely walk onto the alter. I look down at all the weeping people.
'My mom was the most amazing person I have ever known. Shes always been there for me. I remember when I was young and I first walked into my dance studio I was so nervous. I remember my mom taking my hand and saying 'dont even worry about it James. Your going to be just fine'. Ive never forgotten that day. I still even use that catchphrase'
Everyone laughs.
'The one thing about my mom is that she always cared about what others thought. She always put herself in their shoes and thought about them before herself.
About two years ago me and Riley lost a baby. We were devestated. We felt all alone. Even though we had our whole family around us we felt so scared. It was like been in space. Your surrounded be emptyness. But who was there making us move on? My mom. Its like she knew what we were going through. She knew how we felt. If it wasnt for her we wouldnt have made it through that. Shes been there for every single one of you guys sitting in this church. Im sure I can say that none of you can stand up and say she wasnt there for you once. Even if you didnt know her as well as I did. Even if your her neighbour, past school friend; distant friend or arch enemy. It doesnt matter what religion you are or your race. She didnt care about that. All she cared about was what was inside your hearts. She always told me never juge a book by its cover. For a long time I never understood that but now I do. I fully understand. Each one of you has a special memorie of her. Something that shes done for you, said to you, given to you. She cared that much about others that she was willing to put her life on hold. Thats how amazing she was. And I know that shes not really gone. Shes still here in our hearts and she always will be. Because shes amazing and I love her. And nothing makes me prouder than to call her my mom. We love you Deboradh. We always will'
I take a breath in and close my eyes as I listen to people clapping. I take my seat next to Riley and sigh.
'Well done. Im so proud of you' Riley says.
I look at her and see her in tears. I gently kiss her.
I look back up at the priest who tells us its time to take her to the graveyard to burry her. We stand up.
'You ready?' Riley asks.
I nod.
She rubs my arm as we leave to burry my mother.

We stand at the grave and watch her get burried. As the coffin is lowered it suddenly hits me that Im never going to see her again. Ever. I collaspe to the ground in tears. Riley tries to comfort me.
'Mom!' I cry.
'Shhhh. Its okay baby. Im here' Riley also cries.
Kevin, who is in tears, bends down and also tries to calm me.
I just sit there crying for the rest of the burial.
People start to drop in flowers as the earth covers it up.
I stand up and wipe the tears away.
As we leave the grave a song is played that I picked out.
I cant believe shes gone.