Jiley-Our Realitionship Together-Continued

Nightmares and Flashbacks

A week later
James POV:
It's been a week since Emily had her baby. Shes really cute. Riley has been going to Emily's to help her out with Deboradh. While she's helping there I'm minding the twins.
I've just put them to bed. Alfie has gone out for a bit for a break. I sit on the couch. While I sit in silence everything rushes back to me. How Riley cheated on me, everything that happened with Alfie, how I cheated on her, how we nearly got divorced, how my mom died, just everything. It's all come back since mom died.
Riley walks into the house.
'James I'm home'
She walks in and sees me sitting there.
'Hey baby. Are they gone to bed?'
I nod.
She comes and sits next to me.
'You okay?'
'Yup'
I get up and walk off
Next day
Riley's POV:
James has been really distant and I don't know why. He's not his usual self. Right now hes outside sitting on the grass
'Mind if I join?'
'Go for it'
I sit next to him
'This is really nice' I say to him.
'Yup'
I look at him.
'What's up with you?'
'Nothing. I'm fine' he says standing up and walking away into the house.
I follow him. He goes into the kitchen and gets a glass of water.
'You really think I believe that for one second? Tell me what's wrong. You've been distant lately. You're not yourself. What's going on James?'
'Nothing is going on'
'I'm going to keep asking until you tell me'
He turns around.
'Fine! You really want to know what's going on? I cant forget Riley! I cant forget all that's happened to us! Everything keeps coming back!'
'What are you talking about?'
'I'm talking about having nightmares and flashbacks to all the stuff that happened! To you cheating on me, everything that happened with Alfie, me cheating on you, how we nearly got a divorce and how mom died! It's all there in my head! And it's all come back since mom died! She was my rock Riley! Dont get me wrong though. You are too. And I love you. But she was always there! Through everything! When things were bad with us she was always there and got me through it! And now shes gone! And everything I do brings back memories of her or the past! Its just so hard! I hate it! I hate it all!'
He begins to cry.
'Oh baby no. Please dont cry' I say to him giving him a hug.
He cries into my shoulder for a few minutes then pulls away.
'I'm so sorry Riley. I dont mean to bring all this back up again'
'Its okay. It's not your fault'
He puts his head down.
'I think-I think I just need to go for a walk' he says beginning to leave.
'You will come back wont you?' I ask taking his hand.
'Of course I will. Dont worry. I just need some air and time alone to clear my head'
I nod.
'Okay. See you soon then' I say kissing him.
He nods and leaves.
I sigh.
I hate that he's feeling this way. I wish there was something I could do.