Castle On A Hill

Chapter 17

i'm getting dressed for the most drepressing day in anyones lives. a funeral. stings funeral. i look at myself in the mirror and i sigh as i tie my neck tie. i was asked by stings mother to do a eulagy which i'm scared about because i haven't written one yet. who knows what to say.

when i walk down the large staircase i see my parents wearing black and i close my eyes and re open them again. so much is going on this week. funeral, and jellal and erza's farewell along with the other 20 year olds leaving.

i don't say anything to them and they know why because i'm very low right now.

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i sit at the front of the church with the guys and stings family are on the other side. we hear speeches and laughs from family just to light peoples spirits but it didn't light mine alothough the silly things sting used to do younger were funny but i just had no humor left in me right now. all i did was lowly chuckle shaking because i'm next for the eulagy.

'we will now have a eulagy from Natsu Dragneel a very close friend almost brother to sting' now my heart was beating. when i found out about stings death i bet he was scared too.

'hey everyone'

'hello' they muffled and i sighed.

'i haven't written anything, well i have but they are all ball scrunches in my room, litually if you walked in there, you wouldn't find a way out' i joked and the sad crowd giggled. 'anyway, this isn't about me or my room, this day is about sting and i have...nothing to say' i wasn't lying i really didn't i watched the people look at me strange and i just sighed. 'i'm just gonna improvise here...sting is the heart for every group, for anyone. he was there when people were down and sad, unfortunalty he won't be here today to cheer us all up, but i know what he would say...keep yourself strong in your own way, don't listen to others on what they say, feel how you feel, not how others feel' i explained and his parents looked at me smiling but crying nodding away.

'sting was my best friend. he was my first friend, no effence guys' i said towards my gang and they chuckled. 'all four of them were brothers to me. when i had low days, they would raise me if i had family problems, it sounds weird but thats how i felt. they were all there and sting was the father of the group and we were all his kids' i said making them all chuckle.

'but there really isn't anything to say about sting because each and all of us know what he was as a person, you knew he was loving, caring, happy and just there for everyone who needed help. he didn't deserve what he did, but i know for a fact that he's up above, looking down, happy and proud of all of us for going through this day. heres to sting eucliffe, the best friend to everyone' i ended the speech and everyone cried and for a heads up i was crying my eyes out. as i sat back down next to the gang the curtains were closing and we all cried together as sting was litually getting cremated.

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when the funeral was over i couldn't deal with the heartache around the house so i had to say bye to everyone. my parents took me back home to the castle because my real home was to upsetting to stay in.

i was silent again in the car but then i was tired. i never closed my eyes though, i didn't even feel sick. i didn't feel anything, i have nothing to feel, all my feelings have just vanished.

'we're here' mom said and i just sat there. my dad opened my side of the car door and i just looked at him with a straight face.

'don't worry son, it'll be alright'

'will it?' i mumbled quietly and my parents just walked me back to the reception. they said bye and left. i saw the group giving me sympathetic smiles but i just ignored the and walked away to my room.