Not in a million years -Jihope [COMPLETED]

Chapter 1

HOSEOK
I sat around the table, with my 6 other friends, including the person I loved, but I could never tell him that.

Just friends..

Friends is all we can be..

Nothing more..

He'd never like me back anyway.

Not in a million years..

But I still really liked him.

I want him, only him.

It was painful, seeing him everyday. Everyday he's happy, happier than I am, he doesn't know how I feel.

Hurt..

Alone..

Nothing..

Hopeless..

All of my friends see me as their sunshine, or their hope. I have to be happy around them, because if i'm not, they'll think I'm different. I love my friends dearly, but I love him a lot more.

He can never know.

Not in a million years.

He will hate me, I don't want to destroy our friendship that I cherish dearly with my heart. If I ruin it even slightly, my heart, it wont ever exist again. They say love is the best thing in the world, they say love heals, they say love is pure and truthful. But how can that be true? When all I feel is the opposite.

Love is a lie..

A burden..

The worst thing in the world..

It's killing me slowly..

Its too painful, yet I let my body go on with the pain.

Because I love him.

Even if love is a lie, my mind still wants me to like him. It's what I want.

The heart gets what the heart wants.

{how do you feel about this chapter? Is it good? Should I continue? What should I add or what should I change to make it better?}