Chemo Therapy during 3rd Period

Carson POV

Having Spence visit this weekend was absolutely amazing. I have not seen her in a few months. It has been hard knowing she is going through so much and there is nothing I can do. I sit here in my stupid psychology professor explained to us long term memory for the third time this semester. Everyone knows it means "memory processes associated with the preservation of information for retrieval at any later time." But I do not have time to worry about long term memory, when the love of my life is sitting at a hospital getting more chemo ejected into her body on Halloween. This sucks majorly. Once Spence told me Kate would be there along with Kathy I texted Kate to tell her to give me updates. I know I can trust her, Kate is as protective as Spence as I am. I am tapping my foot watching the clock move so slowly, like seriously I think this clock must be broken, so I check my phone. Nope this clock is actually 2 minutes ahead. You have got to be kidding me. One of my teammates is sitting next to me, he leans over and whispers "Dude everything is going to be okay. Calm down. She will text you." I give him the thankful nod.

Finally the class is dismissed and we are released. I run over to my dorm room and pull up my laptop, click video chat. And within moments I see my happy smiling Spence. She tells me all about her appointment and how it went. I see Kate in the background every now and then injecting her opinion about everything. I have been down this road with Spence twice before. I have watched her body handle this, the first few injections are not too bad but by 7 and 9 her body begins to shut down more. What is different this time is I am not there to be with her, and see in her in person. We talk for a little while longer and then I have to go to basketball practice.

Practice was not too bad. Coach was impressed with our game on Saturday, he joked that it must of been Spencer. I must have been blushing like a teen girl because all my teammates just smiled and me and laughed and clapped. I was the only guy on the team doing a long distance relationship. It was hard. I wish Spence could be here, playing basketball. My lock screen on my phone is a picture of an article written about our high school's basketball teams our junior year. As the varsity girls captain and as the varsity boys captain we were chosen for the photo. Her and I were back to back, she had her arms crossed and I was palming the ball towards the camera. We looked so serious. I remember that day like it was yesterday.

Coach called me into his office. I sat at his desk and he explained that the article was about the upcoming season, and how both the girls and boys programs were expected to do quite well. He said I needed to take a picture with Spencer for the article as well as answer some questions. I did not mind at all. Ever since I was a freshman boy and I saw Spencer in Spanish 1 I have had a crush on her. I never told anyone though. When our teams would have dinners or events together, I never complained when asked to work with her. She has this way of making people laugh and smile. I remember at a kids camp, there was this young girl who ate her snack by herself alone in the corner. I watched Spencer leave the counselor's group and go sit with that girl. She thought no one noticed, but I did. The photographer for the newspaper was a little weird to say the least. He tried to get so many strange pictures of Spencer and I. At one point he had us sitting on the bench together trying to "seriously" watch a game. But my favorite was when he did the pictures of her and I passing the ball. She started to smile and laugh. She was so beautiful and did not even realize it. The photographer caught a few of those moments. Finally, Spencer recommended this picture and it turned out amazing. Our teammates were there for that shot, and her team was like "work it Spencer. own that ponytail. work that up do." my teammates on the other hand were giving me catcalls.

The new sweatshirt she got me was so nice. The hard part is its still like in the 70s here. Not really quite sweatshirt weather.

I studied so more and checked my phone for texts from Spence. Last I heard Kate says she was sleeping. During high school I did have girlfriends, but none like Spence. Now of them were as real or as honest or kind hearted as her. I was head over heels for her and I did not care. When I had approached my parents and Kathy about giving her a promise ring, I was nervous. I was nervous they would not give their blessing or say we were moving too fast. But no they were all for it. Kathy actually got emotional, Spence was her daughter. They had been through so much together. Little did I know that the day I actually asked Spence I would be more nervous than ever. But the moment I saw her my heart skipped a beat and went back to its natural rhythm, and the butterflies left. She just made me feel at home. Our rings form a heart when they are side by side, because she has my heart and I am totally okay with that. Spence is someone I cannot wait to get to know more and spend hopefully the rest of my life with her. She deserves the world, and I am willing to work towards giving her the whole world and more.

Spencer, I love you with all my heart.