"Beam please let me help you."
"Forth I don't even remember what my dream was about?"
"Dream? Don't you mean nightmare." I can see the worry and anger in Forth's eyes.
"Yes nightmare, Whatever you want to call them." I scooted closer to Forth, and rest my head on his shoulder. "Now please can we just try and go back to sleep Forth?" Forth sighed and brought his hands around me, bringing me closer to him. Then we laid on the bed.
"I just want to help you Beam."
"I know that Forth, and that is what you are doing just by holding me close right now. Just please don't let go."
"That you will never have to worry about baby, I will never let go of you. No matter what, and that is a promise."
I laid there in the silence, listening to Forth's breathing trying to will my eyes to close. I know that he was trying to do the same. But I also know that neither of us will be getting anymore sleep for the rest of the night.
It's been three months since everything has happened, and I really do not think that I am getting any better. I thought that maybe with a little time it would just go away, but I was wrong. Everyday my family and friends ask me how I am doing, and everyday I tell them that I am doing better than the day before. I don't know if they truly believe me, but they do not pester me to much. There is one person that I cannot fool, and that is the man who is holding me right now. Forth knows that I am not getting better, and I know that not being able to help me is killing him.
Forth is the one person that I want to tell most about my nightmares, and he is also the one person I don't want to tell the most. I know that he will be heartbroken, because these are not just my brain creating bad dreams of what "could have happened". These are memories of what really happened; that have come back in the form of nightmares, and they just will not go away. How can I tell Forth all that happened before he got to me? I know that I can't, I'm afraid that he is going to shut down on me again. I also don't want him to look at me any differently.
(Forth's POV)
I laid there listening to the soft breaths that Beam is taking. I know that he is not sleeping, he never goes back to sleep after the nightmares. All I want to do is help him, but how can I when he will not talk to me? I need to know what his nightmares are about, even though I have a pretty good guess that they are about the night it all happened. That's probably why he doesn't want to tell me about them, his memories are probably back completely. Beam is in so much pain, yet he keeps thinking about how I'm going to feel when I find out.
I hate seeing him hurting like this, and not being able to do a damn thing about it. Does he think that I will Be no help to him? Is that why he won't tell me what is going on? I took a deep breath, and tighten my hold on him; and he did the same. I love him so much, all I want to do is help him get past this. I know that it may never fully go away, but maybe he will be able to get a good night sleep again. And maybe his smile will return to his eyes once more.
(Beam's POV)
BEEP BEEP BEEP
*Both sigh*
Six a.m already, and another night gone by with no sleep. This cannot keep happening.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"You ready to get up?"
"No. Just ten more minutes, please don't let go yet."
"Ok take as much time as you need." As I lay there next to Forth, the only think I'm thinking about is how much I love him. I would never want to be held by anyone else but him.
It's been three months, and I can still feel Mark's nasty hands on me. I can still feel his lips all over my body. I need him to go away, I don't want to feel him anymore. All I want to feel is Forth's hand and lips on my body. I refuse to let Mark take that away from me.
I slowly started to kiss Forth's chest, leaving a trail of butterfly kisses up to his neck, and on his jaw line. Forth turned his head so our lips could make contact. He kissed my lips like they were his most favorite thing in the world. I got up and straddled him. Forth grabbed hold of my ass and squeezed it, I let out a moan. Forth used that opportunity to slide his tongue into my open mouth. To which I gladly welcomed, I love the feeling of his tongue exploring my mouth. We fought for dominance for a few seconds; to which I gave in. I let him take over my mouth to do with whatever he wanted...
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