A Night To Remember or A Night To Forget? {Forth&Beam}

Chapter 34

Now where were we? Ohh that's right, I'm going to fuck the life right  out of you." Mark moving closer to me, as he kissed my neck. Then he moved up to my lips, and stuck his tongue in my mouth. Moving it all around, the hand that was not holding the knife trailed down my body. He started to rub me through my jeans. "Mmmm now this is nice isn't it?" He said finally taking his mouth away from mine.

Tears came to my eyes. "Forth...Fo-Forth." I whispered, Mark took the knife away from my neck and straddled me."Please don't...no...Forth, H e l p."

"Sorry but your boyfriend is not here to save you. And Didn't I tell you that the only words I want to hear out of your mouth is yes master?"

"No... Fo-Forth...For-." He cut me off

"Hmm looks like she didn't give you enough, open your mouth." I kept my mouth shut, I didn't want anymore of whatever they gave me. It was hard enough keeping my eyes open as it is. "I said." Mark punched me in the stomach again, as he spoke. "Open your mouth." He slipped something into my mouth, then he proceeded to take his shirt off. "There That should be enough, now go to sleep.

Mark started to kiss me all over, then he unzipped my jeans; and slipped his hand down my front grabbing ahold of my member. "Mmmm there it is, the fun is just about to start."

"Beam..."

"Beam!"

"...Beam, please Wake up baby!"

"Forth?"

"Yes Bee it's me, baby I need you to wake up Now ok."

Forth's voice slowly came into focus. But why won't my eyes open, I know that I'm still unconscious. I know that Mark is still on top of me, doing god knows what to my body. The only man that I have ever wanted and want to touch me is my Forth. No one else; My fear is having Forth's touches be replaced by someone else, especially Mark's.

"Beam..."

"BEAM!" Forth yelled, causing my eyes to fly open.

Forth took my shaking body into his arms. No,  Forth took my shaking body into my safe zone. Letting me know that Mark can and will never hurt me physically again. But what about my mental? I can't get him out of my head no matter how hard I try. No matter what I do, he is always there in the back of my mind tormenting me. Whether I'm awake or asleep. 

"How are you feeling baby?" Forth asked me after about twenty minutes, when I was finally starting to calm down.

"Better..." "I feel better Forth, thank you." I said trying to control the shakiness in my voice.

Forth looked deep into my eyes, my guess is he is trying to figure out how I am really feeling; and what is going on in my brain.

"Baby." Forth said, as he ran his thumb over my ear soaked cheeks. "I'm not trying to force you, but you need to talk to me. Tell me what is going on in your dreams Beam. I'm not the doctor here, you are. Don't you think that maybe talking about this will help you in someway? Or maybe... if you just don't feel comfortable enough to talk to me, you can talk to that therapist your folks hired. You never really gave him a chance, who knows. Maybe you would actually like him."

I leaned into his palm that is still on my cheek. "Forth, I don't want to talk to a stranger. I don't know him, and this stuff is..."

"So personal?" He said.

"Yes, exactly. This is so personal, I don't want feel comfortable with someone poking around with my brain."

"But Bee you..." I cut him off before he could finish.

"Forth can you just get me a glass of water please. My throat is really dry." Even though he was trying to hide it, I can still see the hit of disappointment slash hopelessness that Forth has in his eyes. I know that he knows that I am just trying to change the subject.

*Sigh* "Ok" He said letting go of me, and getting up. I watched his back, as he disappeared out of our bedroom.

When Forth was no longer in my line of sight, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. 'What am I supposed to do? I can't keep going on like this I don't want to talk to some stranger about all of this. How would he be able to help me anyway. The only person who makes me feel safe and at peace is Forth. I want to talk to him, and tell him everything. He is the only person that I want to know every detail about that night. But he is also the one person who I don't want to keep anything from that dreadful night. I don't want him to know what Mark really did to me. I don't want him to know what happens in those dreaded nightmares.'

"I don't know what to do?"

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