Insanity At Its Best

55 - fleeting willpower

Desperado by Rihanna

"Okay i'll see you tomorrow" I give Pam a quick hug before making my way towards the field.

"Harley you better not be going out there to spy on my man" I hear Barbie say and I roll my eyes.

I gasp and turn around with a shocked look on my face, "You mean to tell me that the field doesn't lead into the parking lot where my car is? Dammit I must've parked it somewhere else. Darn" I snap my fingers and roll my eyes.

"No need for the attitude Quinzel, don't forget that this is my squad and I can kick you out whenever I please" I nod and give her a smile.

"I'll keep that in mind"

I push the metal bar and walk across the concrete floor.

I spot the football team doing some drills. I hear whistling coming from my left towards the parking lot.

Someone pulls me around the corner and presses me up against a wall. I push the person away at full force when I realize it's Jack.

"What do you want Jack?" I ask him and cross my arms. "We need to talk" he states matter of factory and a chuckle escaped my mouth.

"We really don't have anything to talk about" he sighs and shakes his head. "That's where you're wrong" I smirk.

My eyes glance to the coach blowing his whistle at the sweating guys.

"And why's that?" I smile and he comes closer to me.

"I need to...explain myself" he says the last part in a hushed tone. I shake my head.

"Seriously, let's the drop the subject and we'll both move on with our lives" I smile and clasp my hands together. He shakes his head.

"Let me talk about what happened-" I shake my head.

"No, you don't get to crawl your way back into my life and expect me to be all ears. You left. That's it. That's what happened"

"That isn't what happened-" he argues.

"According to me, according to what I saw right in front of me that's what happened, okay?" I tell him and he keeps his mouth shut.

"You left me two months ago, alone. I was worried, I thought you killer yourself-" He scoffs.

"I would never kill myself, for anyone" he emphasizes the last word.

"Whatever the case was I don't want to hear about it. You had your chance to talk to me. And you lost it" his hand goes straight for my throat and he presses his body against mine.

"I couldn't confront you because I was locked away for that time." My heart is beating erratically and i can't tell if it's because i'm afraid of what hell do to me or if it's because of how close he is to me.

"The cops, they found me. Threw me in jail for the guy i killed, a bunch of shit went down; multiple court hearings. All in all Harvey's dad got me out on probation. I couldn't come to you because I had close eyes on me. I still do which is why I haven't said anything." I swallow thickly.

"I can't know that for sure. I can't just blindly trust you again" I tell him and he eases his hold on me.

"I'm not asking for you to, I just needed you to know what happened" I nod.

"Why were you so insistent on me being on the cheerleading squad?"

"I like knowing where you are, also, i would definitely not mind seeing you in that short little skirt you girls call a cheer uniform" his voice is low condescending. His face is incredibly close to mine. So much so I can feel his breath upon my mouth.

His eyes are concentrated my mouth and I bite my lip. "You can't imagine how hard it's been not having you these past few weeks." His other hand lands on my waist and he gives it a hard squeeze letting me know how serious he is. "Seeing you everyday around this hellhole but not being with you" it begins to travel down my side. "It kills me seeing you everyday, laughing when i'm not the one who's causing u to laugh" They stop at my hips. "Seeing you in class so bored, ready to pass out when I should be the one to drag you out of school to distract you" They inch towards my lower back just above the curve of my ass. The Id in the back of my mind is aching. Just begging to be touched more by Jack like I was so used to before. "How I miss that pretty little mouth" his thumb that was resting on my neck sweeps across my bottom lip. "on my co-"

"Napier! On the field. You can make out with your girlfriend after practice but right now this is my time. Your team needs you to be in shape for the game next week" I hear the coach yell and finally i snap out of the heated trance i was just in.

He looks towards his coach and I take advantage of him being distracted to free myself from his hold.

I push past him and run towards my car, not thinking twice of looking back.

Quickly i open the drivers side and hop inside.

I lean my back against the hard seat. My breath coming out in pants. I can't tell if it's from the run here or what could've just happened a few seconds ago.

My forehead hits the steering wheel and I take a deep breath. My eyes flutter closed and i try to savour the moment.

How it felt to have him against me. His piercing green eyes devouring me. His mouth so close yet so far from mine. His words, oh his words. Originally do harmless and innocent till they begun to get dirtier and sinful just the way I like it. His hands on my body. Oh how I miss his touch.

I sit up and put the key into the ignition. I need tog eat out as fast as possible before I get out of this car and beg him to fuck me.

I drive out of the parking lot as fast as possible. Leaving behind the man I loved and still love.