The End Can't Come Soon Enough

Chapter Eleven "Hang out with me?"

When Charlie found out

Charlie's POV

He's distant. He tends to be distant when this happens, but he pushed me away when I hugged him. I hurt him somehow.

"Lift your shirt Cas. Just lift it now." He did it hesitantly, wincing when he was about half-way. It was horrible seeing what I saw. He's hurt, and that's sad. "I'm going to beat his ass, Cas. I fucking hate your father. I fucking want to make him choke on his words. He needs to be gone. Are you the only one that he beats.. or threatens?"

He shook his head. "A-Anna sometimes.. but that's it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just didn't want you freaking out."

"It's ok Cas. Are you hiding anything else from me?" He shook his head. Usually he never lies, so I should trust him his time. If there was anything else I would find out, I'm pretty sure I would. We're bestfriends, what would there be to hide.

Cas POV

I feel bad for lying to Charlie about my new... addiction. My arm is littered with new scars and cuts. I can help it anymore. School has been very hellish, I can't focus.. but I'm getting homework done, that's the important thing. Father can't be upset about that.

PING

D: Can you talk about all of this with me? You seem more quiet than usual

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D: Castiel please.

D: You're becoming really important to me. Don't leave me on read.

C: Sorry. I'll finish our art project, I'm not all that willing to hang out or anything

D: ... Can I at least get you something.. like maybe something to eat, or a coffee or something?

C: Coffee sounds nice, but you don't have to.

D: But I want to Cas. I can probably help out with the art project if I can come over.

C: I'll have to ask my dad.. brb then

I walked downstairs, father was eating, drinking, and watching some kind of sport thing. I want to ask, but then I'm so scared to. "Excuse-excuse me Father? Can a friend and I hang out to work on a group assignment?"

He looked at me, he seems somewhat sober. "I don't care, clean up the house a little, before you leave. And be home by nine. I'm not feeding anybody past that time. Hopefully your little friend will feed you."

"Ok Father, thank you."

I didn't think that he would say yes to that. I'm not sure if I wanted to hang out. I kind of just want to isolate myself and stay away from everybody. I don't want to talk, I don't want to leave the house, I don't want to eat. All I want to do is sleep. Sleep and sleep and sleep. I don't want to be awake. But if I don't go, it would have been a waste asking father if i could hang out with him.

I could possibly make myself throw up. But I would be throwing up stomach acid. I haven't eaten that much recently. I should just go hang out with him. It shouldn't be that hard to leave the house.

C: Hey, I can hang out. You should know where I live. Let me know when you're leaving and when you're here.

D: Omw!

C: I need to be home by nine though. just an fyi

D: Sounds like a plan