A.K.A Rebound Girl

1.11- Goodbye

It was not easy to get over from a heartbreak. Halos araw-araw kinakain ako ng mga what if's ko, kapag nakikita ko naman sila parang sinasampal naman ako ng insecurities ko para magising na ako sa katotohanan.

Last semester ko na ngayong taon, thankfully sigurado ako na magmamartsa ako sa graduation, still praying na sana I'll graduate with flying colors.

Lahat ng sakit na pinagdaanan ko sa ilang taon kong pag-aaral sa mula hanggang high school hanggang kolehiyo ay hindi basta basta.

My family who can't give me the time, love, and attention that I'm aching for, the boys whom I became infatuated with, and the man that I loved caused me the same pain that broke my heart but built myself.

Si MK ay hindi magiging si MK ngayon kung hindi dahil sa lahat ng sakit na naranasan ko. It was painful but the end result of it was worth it.

I tried my best not to build any anger towards them, especially Jasper and Eleazar because I want peace of mind.

Tinapos ko lang ang isang sem ng pagiging subcoach ko at hindi na ako umulit kahit na anong pangungumbinsi ni Dean at nina man bun, they said the team's game will not going to be the same again without me. I highly doubt that. They have the skills even without me.

After my outburst kay Eleazar noon sa JCO nablacklist na siya kina Kuya at sa bahay. Ang awkward na rin naming dalawa kapag nasa practice. I had to deal with him while I'm on the process of accepting everything.

After Eleazar wala ng sumunod na iba. I know until now he can still stir up my whole being but I know my place. We're casual with each other, nothing more nothing less.

I never had any suitors ever since, kaya kapag tinatanong ako kung bakit ako walang boyfriend eh pabiro ko nalang na sinasagot.

"Wala naman akong iboboyfriend, wala namang nagkakamali pa."

I learned to treasure all my heartbreaks, it cause me to grow and be the person that I am right now.

Kahit na nasaktan ako noon ayaw ko ng ibalik pa ang oras para lang balikan ang panahong pumapayag pa akong wag pahalagahan ang sarili ko, noong mga panahong umaasa pa ako sa mahahanap ko sa ibang tao ang kaligayahan.

I tried to look for my identity in the Lord, and it was very assuring. Mali na hinanap ko ang kasiyahan sa ibang tao, mali na nagsayang ako ng oras para lang magpapansin sa kanila.