SEVENTEEN (세븐틴) Imagines - EDITING

Depressed // Dino

Arxandria's POV

How can I say that my depression came back to Channie? I'm scared 'cause last time, it didn't end well. I almost killed myself because I got bullied.

Channie didn't took the news too well and almost followed me (he almost cut his wrist). Alright, I just won't say it then. I hope that Channie won't notice the new scars on my stomach and thighs.

I heard Channie coming in our shared room at the SVT's dorm. "Xan-ah!~ Where are you?" Channie called out to me happily.

Oh no! There's blood everywhere (forgot to tell you, she was cutting her stomach and thighs). "I'm in the bathroom, just wait!~" I immediately locked the door and started cleaning the bathroom. I looked everywhere as I change my clothes and wash out the blood in them. I put the plaster on and walked out the door like nothing happened.

"Hey, jagi!~ I miss you" Channie said as he hugged me tight. 'Oh fudging nuggets! It hurts!' I shouted in my head and hugged him back. I didn't show my face to him 'cause my eyes are now failing me.

The blood in my stomach didn't got through the plaster, so I was safe. "Channie, what made you so happy?" I asked him as I quickly wipe my tears as he pulled back. "Because we finished early! So that means cuddle time" He excitedly said as he set up our room.

While watching the movie, I suddenly fell asleep. Dreaming of something much worse that pushed me into madness.

9 months later

I couldn't take it anymore..All of the bashers are bashing me because of my looks and attitude. I am actually a good person that's oe of the reason why Dino fell for me (That's what he said).

I am very sorry, Dino.. but I can't take it anymore.

I wrote a letter and left it on our bed. It's time.

"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, DINO. DON'T EVER FORGET THAT" I shouted as I finally let go of the chair and the rope..

Dino's POV

(She already did it, when Chan realized something bad is happening)

As we were practicing, I suddenly got into a daze because I felt something wrong. I checked out my phone and immediately go into Xan's Instagram.

Bashers were everwhere. Me and Xan posted a photo yesterday showing that we were on an amusement park. Just the two of us.

(just random usernames. If any of the username is true, please don't hate me. This is just an imagine)

"She probably brainwashed him just to use his money hahaha" - @jesslovessvt

"I agree with you @jesslovessvt! Look, she didn't even invited the other guys! What a b***h" - @eisaisthebest

"Can you just stop the hate? Dino loves her, why couldn't anyone see that? He chose her because he LOVES her, okay? So don't be b***hes and just f**k off, okay? XanChan, Fighting!!" - @XanChanjjang

"Tsk, attention seeker at it's best!!" @Dinoismyaegi

I already stopped reading at this point because I felt like something bad is happening right now.

"DINO! WHERE ARE YOU GOING?!" Manager-hyung shouted. "XAN'S IN DANGER, I NNED TO GO TO HER" I shouted as I race down the hallways "WE'LL COME WITH" All my hyungs shoutred back as they catch up to me.

As we run to the parking lot, we immediately go inside the van and S.coups hyung started driving to the dorm.

At the dorm

"XAN-AH, WHERE ARE YOU?!" I shouted as I hear nothing but silence. Usually, she would be singing or reading with the music on. But, it's like no one is here.

"Hyungs, go and search the whole dorm. I'm gonna look at our room." I nervously said as I go up to our room.

As I opened our room, a letter immediately caught my eyes. I sat on our bed and started reading the letter.

"Dino/Channie

When you read this, it means that you sensed something was wrong and currently checked my Insta, right? I'm really sorry for leaving you but I can't take it anymore. Please, don't be sad. Be happy and always smile because I will always be with you but in spirit form. I won't ever leave you 'cause you might do something stupid. I'm watching you, Lee Chan. If you did it, then I will "ACCIDENTALLY" drop a book at your head. I love you, okay? Don't ever blame youself. I brought this upon myself, so don't be sad. I love you, Channie. The ambulance is gonna come like in 5 minutes to take my body. Be sure to not look at me, okay? If you want to, then be strong..for me, okay? Don't be sad, My MJ. This is supposed to happen.. I wasn't strong enough. Please, for me? I love you, Dino. Don't ever forget that J"

Love, your little Xan.

I closed the letter as tears suddenly falls down one by one. The hyungs are now beside me, reading the letter. I slowly walked to our bathroom and opened the door. Jun-hyung was the first one to let out a gasp. There she was. Hanging from the ceiling..

I used the chair that she used and let her down. "I love you too, Xan. I will do it, for you. So wait for me there, okay? Always be with us and tell us if it's wrong or right. I love you, my little Xan." I said as I kissed her forehead.

I hugged her for the last time as the ambulance took her away from us. I broke down and the hyungs came close to hug me.

"We'll always remember her, Chan. Don't worry, we are still here plus Xan but in spirit form. Come on".

Bye, Xan. I will always love you